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so i FINALLY made it to work for the am morning saturday shift ( i was technically supposed to be here the last two saturdays, but well i was feeling like crap last week and i was super tired the week before) i was surprised that i actually got up and into the shower at around 6:30... i think that they shower definitely helped... so i got here on time but definitely not in an sort of consciousness - i dont think that came around until about 11 or so... and im surprised also at the fact that its about 6pm and im not tired yet - although i probably just jinxed myself and will prob pass out on the train and wake up way past my stop... well lets hope that doesnt happen.
i have no fun plans for tonight because well, im miss "anti-social-have-no-life-ill-sit-in-my-room-and-watch-tv-like-a-bum"... although i dont really mind, since i dont have the money to be spending and if i did go anywhere or do anything id probably be done and finished by 10pm....
tomorrow im going a RIDING! i love going riding...i sometimes get alittle frustrated since i only have a half-hour of actually riding, and if i dont feel like the horse is cooperating or is just being a stubborn pain in the ass, then i get mad and its like well how can i get better if i get the horse to do what i want?? i have to be in more control and be more confident since they can sense you and how your acting or riding. and if they know that they can do whatever they want, then they'll just walk all over you and be as stubborn as they want. but hopefully i wont have that problem tomorrow. depends on the horse i get to a point - i know that if i get harley, then ill definitely have my work cut out for me, and hopefully if i get chip, if he's in a good mood and not too cranky, hopefully he'll be as good as he was last week. i havent ridden snapple in awhile, and shes usually pretty good for me, or at least has been. and what else also irks me is im paying about 50 bucks for that half-hour so its even worse to know that i really didnt have a good lesson or felt like i did at least. and i dont know who ill have as an instructor so i dont know what im getting although im sure that they will be a good instructor.... i wish that i could just get someone consistent, like i had with audrey, who knew how i was doing and what i could do.... and i liked beth, but i dont know if shes teaching temporarily (which is probably the situation) and who is going to replace her...oh well - something else ill just have to wait to find out about....
well its almost time to go home... gonna watch snl (if im still awake) and probably do a bunch of nothing else....don't be jealous...