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im such a loser - my life is so boring and since all i do is work, it doesnt exactly help to make my life unboring or at least give myself some sort of social life.
im just bored and since me and my life are boring, it doesnt exactly help this either, but at the moment, im just bored, fed up and tired with everything thats going on in my life.
and to make matters worse - my job is getting pretty damn boring. its gotten extremely boring since my job has been cut in half due to the upgrade we have with things going digital, and its only going to get worse. so the place i spend practically all my time is boring. its like im not meant to be happy or enjoy anything - ever.
to add to my un-fun and un-social life, more recently ive been feeling grossly fat, and i a huge failure for giving in to some of my cravings as of late. everyone keeps saying that i am skinny and i that i look thin and am fine and shouldnt lose anymore weight, but i feel so extremely huge - esp the past couple of days. and ive been eating things lately that ive been so good to aviod and not eat since they are so bad and fatting and just gross. i just cant and dont believe everyone else when they say all those things. im stopping this nonsense of giving in to my cravings. its insane that im letting myself eat some of those things.
(and the people that are supposed to be the so-called "professionals" and help me, arent - they arent really cutting it AT ALL)
nothing's going my way lately or is working out for me.
i just am unhappy with me and my life at the moment.
please just let me be.
im just bored and since me and my life are boring, it doesnt exactly help this either, but at the moment, im just bored, fed up and tired with everything thats going on in my life.
and to make matters worse - my job is getting pretty damn boring. its gotten extremely boring since my job has been cut in half due to the upgrade we have with things going digital, and its only going to get worse. so the place i spend practically all my time is boring. its like im not meant to be happy or enjoy anything - ever.
to add to my un-fun and un-social life, more recently ive been feeling grossly fat, and i a huge failure for giving in to some of my cravings as of late. everyone keeps saying that i am skinny and i that i look thin and am fine and shouldnt lose anymore weight, but i feel so extremely huge - esp the past couple of days. and ive been eating things lately that ive been so good to aviod and not eat since they are so bad and fatting and just gross. i just cant and dont believe everyone else when they say all those things. im stopping this nonsense of giving in to my cravings. its insane that im letting myself eat some of those things.
(and the people that are supposed to be the so-called "professionals" and help me, arent - they arent really cutting it AT ALL)
nothing's going my way lately or is working out for me.
i just am unhappy with me and my life at the moment.
please just let me be.