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Mar 12, 2004 19:04

i thought of so many things that i wanted to write here since i've been in worcester. i love being here and seeing my friends, but i've felt really agitated and irritable lately. i keep seeing such awful things and i feel so angry.

the gay marriage thing is driving me nuts. i understand why people think it's a big deal, but i know that it's not. stop debating it, and use your brains. it all comes down to one thing, when somebody gets married it doesn't hurt anybody. if some people can't get married it hurts them. if everybody can get married nobody gets hurt. yay happy world
of course there are the people that think they're hurt by same sex couples...but what are there reasons: religion & gross-out factor
separation of church and state

i keep seeing all of these people standing on intersections because it's getting warmer and it makes me soooo upset. i can't just drive by anymore, but i don't know what i can do. it blows my mind that people can ignore somebody in total desperation. try and think about how embarassing it must be to stand there knowing what people are thinking about you. i can't even forgive myself for just driving by.
keep on trying not to make eye contact.
you're not special or exempt, that could be you.
you know it could be you...stuff happens, money dissapears and family's separate. there are tragedies. there are unforseen circumstances. there's illness and addiction.
nobody plans on being out of work and begging for food.
that is not your goal.

i'm feeling like this crazy idealist liberal...and not a lot of people react to the things i think the way i wish they would. it seems so simple to me. have respect for human dignity.

events at the candy mansion have made me want to say really loudly that THERE IS NO REASON TO EVER TALK DOWN TO ANOTHER HUMAN BEING. you are never better than another person. although the idea that you might be is really tempting and inviting, you're still not. other people deserve your respect, you deserve theirs. get out of the little world inside of your brain and realize that there's a lot of stress in OTHER PEOPLE's lives too. everyday bad things happen to people, and some of them aren't mean. everyday bad things happen to people, and some of them are mean. i don't know what's wrong with the first group but they don't make me feel happy.

i was talking w/morgan and we were saying how it would be so cool if everybody was like "oh nicole (or whoever you are) you're the most beautiful, wonderful and intelligent person i've ever met" i would love that. my self esteem would be inflated enormously. imagine being queen of the world and everybody worshipped you, and you knew it was because you were the best. i'd go for that. i think that most people would. i think that's why it's so easy to hate other people. if you hate someone you can conclude that you're better than them. for some reason that appeals to people (the being better part), including myself.

i need to stop this because it could go on forever.
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