long time, no entry
havent done this in a while, so whatever.
I'm single... have been since Ciara broke up with me.
its been one month and ten days since that happened and i dont honestly know how i feel about still.
Things in my life since then have been pretty weird, pretty strange, pretty... much, like they were before i met Ciara...
in my eyes, the reason the break up affected me so much, was due to the length of it. the entire effin thing was a tease. i was miserable before i met her, even more so after the seven day "relationship"... the saddest part about that though is that she made me happy during those seven days. for the first time i can even remember i was happy. before that week i was lonely, i had a void, and after the break up the void just got bigger. she filled the void, and when she left, she took with her more than she filled...
what confused me the most, is that, she said she liked me, but then she goes and says that her feelings have changed, which brings me to the thought that she never liked me and only said yes to me at the party to avoid hurting me their. but in my mind, looking back, it wouldve hurt me less to have been told no there instead of a week later after saying yes...
call me a bitchy wuss for whining about a relationship that lasted a week, but i liked her, and whatever and i think i'm finally realizing why was so effed up after the "relationship" was over. i think me realizing it is going to help me get over her and find someone else, if i can find someone around here, because i really dont like this void... and i dont want it getting any bigger
!!ON A LIGHTER NOTE!!
¬I've brought my grade in english up to a B-... so i guess that means i'll live...
¬i got in trouble for playing medal of honor in 4th period, got my number taken away until jan 15th! lol thats funny to me
¬i want to do something saturday night, so give me something to do... PLEASE!
I'm single... have been since Ciara broke up with me.
its been one month and ten days since that happened and i dont honestly know how i feel about still.
Things in my life since then have been pretty weird, pretty strange, pretty... much, like they were before i met Ciara...
in my eyes, the reason the break up affected me so much, was due to the length of it. the entire effin thing was a tease. i was miserable before i met her, even more so after the seven day "relationship"... the saddest part about that though is that she made me happy during those seven days. for the first time i can even remember i was happy. before that week i was lonely, i had a void, and after the break up the void just got bigger. she filled the void, and when she left, she took with her more than she filled...
what confused me the most, is that, she said she liked me, but then she goes and says that her feelings have changed, which brings me to the thought that she never liked me and only said yes to me at the party to avoid hurting me their. but in my mind, looking back, it wouldve hurt me less to have been told no there instead of a week later after saying yes...
call me a bitchy wuss for whining about a relationship that lasted a week, but i liked her, and whatever and i think i'm finally realizing why was so effed up after the "relationship" was over. i think me realizing it is going to help me get over her and find someone else, if i can find someone around here, because i really dont like this void... and i dont want it getting any bigger
!!ON A LIGHTER NOTE!!
¬I've brought my grade in english up to a B-... so i guess that means i'll live...
¬i got in trouble for playing medal of honor in 4th period, got my number taken away until jan 15th! lol thats funny to me
¬i want to do something saturday night, so give me something to do... PLEASE!