i dont know why i still care about you..
i am bored. today i ran in gym and twisted my ankle so dan hadda help me. i decided that im not calling zach untill he sees me on wednesday n is like 'i want her back' haha. im going there w/brooke and im trying to get luke n dean to come with me or at least luke so i wont b a loner w/brooke. i need guys there to back me up if luke vanpelt tries to pull sum shit on me. yeahh i needa talk about homecoming to ryan cause its been like 4 days since we've talked. i decided that i dont like zach nemore...hes not worth it...cause i mean i shouldnt hafta change who i am just for him and i shouldnt be the one calling him and apologizing to him when hes the one thats fucking up all the time ya know? n especailly if he treats me like shit. i talked to alota ppl about it n they said i should just not talk to him anymore but its so hard... i mean i SERIOUSLY like him which is a shoker for me cause the only people i have seriously seriously liked in my whole LIFE are day'lon houston..rob spain..and zach hutzell. haha and all of em have ended up pretty gay but i feel like i can still stop me and zachs problems. even tho i prolly cant cause zach is zach no matter what i tell myself...i know he hastn changed..he never will. but yeah so i hafta look freakin awesome if i see him... i am pissed at dustin..that all got effed up lemme tell u. he screwed me over but i guess i screwed him over first so thats what i get. theres nothin 2 do today..gillian told me to meet her at the park but idk if i wanna..n brooke wants to go to the mall tonite. prolly not gunna happen either. well im gunna go look for shoes that i wanna buy so zach can think ive got hot shoes haha. laters.