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i cried today.
well first i went to the beach.
played football with my family (me my dad and hannah won. go us!)
then i went into the hot tub.
hannah and i went to get coffee and run errands with camille.
and then we began rearranging my furniture (i am extremely compulsive about feeling "at home" in my house. i needed everything to feel just right. its really unfortunate im as sensitive as i am about it. but thats just me.)
i then came home and we went out to dinner and sat out on the beach while we ate. it was fun.
we then watched some 24.
none of us have ever seen it but my aunt owns every season of it,
so we thought wed try it out.
im not adjusting to change again very well.
i know this happens every year.
third time. my house. i thought this would get easier, but it doesnt.
tellings stories to camille, some she liked some she ignored,
i pictured matt and julian at dunkin and me telling them and how they would react.
i miss that already. people who understand. who laugh.
im really anal about the house. and im scared that my concern for feeling comfortable is going to come off as being bossy and demanding. im doing it because its important to me, not because i NEED control. and im worried.
the end days of my family are in near sight
and im getting scared.
i know ill survive,
i even know ill have a great time.
i have in the past.
i just, hate to walk away from things i love.
so i cried because brittany didnt like my set up of the house furniture.
what an effin baby.
i need to take a deep breath.
xoxo nicole
well first i went to the beach.
played football with my family (me my dad and hannah won. go us!)
then i went into the hot tub.
hannah and i went to get coffee and run errands with camille.
and then we began rearranging my furniture (i am extremely compulsive about feeling "at home" in my house. i needed everything to feel just right. its really unfortunate im as sensitive as i am about it. but thats just me.)
i then came home and we went out to dinner and sat out on the beach while we ate. it was fun.
we then watched some 24.
none of us have ever seen it but my aunt owns every season of it,
so we thought wed try it out.
im not adjusting to change again very well.
i know this happens every year.
third time. my house. i thought this would get easier, but it doesnt.
tellings stories to camille, some she liked some she ignored,
i pictured matt and julian at dunkin and me telling them and how they would react.
i miss that already. people who understand. who laugh.
im really anal about the house. and im scared that my concern for feeling comfortable is going to come off as being bossy and demanding. im doing it because its important to me, not because i NEED control. and im worried.
the end days of my family are in near sight
and im getting scared.
i know ill survive,
i even know ill have a great time.
i have in the past.
i just, hate to walk away from things i love.
so i cried because brittany didnt like my set up of the house furniture.
what an effin baby.
i need to take a deep breath.
xoxo nicole