Summer Days & My Double Life
Literally this summer has consisted of: going to the mall, tanning, eating, working out, swimming, watching dramas, boba and frozen yogurt. I have not tutored a single hour because I can't get any hours, but I did lifeguard for this bougie 4th of July party and got paid plenty for sitting there and eating catered food so that's my paycheck of the summer I suppose. Is this living the life? A friend told me I'm living the LA life in the Bay, lol.
There's only 3 weeks of it left until I have to go to dreaded summer school (my first UCLA summer session ever). It's only vacations like these when I can spend quality time with family and lifelong friends. When I'm home in NorCal I feel disconnected with my LA life...I really am living a double life. I don't really keep into contact with anyone from UCLA and I don't even feel bad about it because I know I'm going to be seeing them so much when school starts. It gets pretty bad when I forget my duties as a staff member and I have to tell myself that there are things I need to do before school starts, but I can't get myself to do them. The same goes when I'm at school, I don't really keep into contact with my friends from home as much as I should, we're just all living our own college lives. You would think I'd be used to this after 4 years, but I'm really not. When I was down in LA a couple weeks ago, I didn't have that much fun because I missed home...that's when I came to this conclusion -- I always get torn when I have to go from one to another and I go into a depressed retreat for a couple of days, it's my way of adapting back I guess. It's only during those days when I wished I had gone to a college closer by so I can be at home more often...
The feeling goes away pretty soon once I get back into the tune of things though and I realize I chose the best decision for myself. I think I've grown a lot having to go through these constant trials, and it's been part of the college experience. I don't believe you get the same chance if you choose to go to a college where you can go home every weekend or even every other weekend. It's just not the same and you don't leave much room for yourself to grow and learn to be independent. This is coming from a girl who's been sheltered all her life until going away (far far away) for college. I'm pretty sure I wouldn't be as self sufficient as I am now if I had gone to some other college nearby. I'm also pretty sure I wouldn't have let myself meet as many amazing people as I did if I had gone somewhere closer to home. Having to step out of my comfort zone and be put in a place completely foreign to me has given me a chance of a lifetime in terms of education, knowledge, friends, and opportunities. I'm still really glad I chose the life I'm living now =)
These past few days have been inching closer and closer to my 21st birthday and I couldn't be more excited. I'm not even doing anything big, just a couple of plans with some very close friends that I'm more than happy to be able to hang out with. But the 21st is something I've been looking forward to for a long time, and I still can't believe it's only 5 days away. I would like to thank the government for giving my a jury duty notice, but hopefully I won't have to come in *crosses fingers* haha. I guess I'll try to update after all the festivities are over...until then I'm ending this note with Super Junior's new song No Other, because it has such a summery and lovely feel to it. The boys have done it again and after watching their live performances I'm proud to say they've become the best in the business...nobody can perform live like they do!
There's only 3 weeks of it left until I have to go to dreaded summer school (my first UCLA summer session ever). It's only vacations like these when I can spend quality time with family and lifelong friends. When I'm home in NorCal I feel disconnected with my LA life...I really am living a double life. I don't really keep into contact with anyone from UCLA and I don't even feel bad about it because I know I'm going to be seeing them so much when school starts. It gets pretty bad when I forget my duties as a staff member and I have to tell myself that there are things I need to do before school starts, but I can't get myself to do them. The same goes when I'm at school, I don't really keep into contact with my friends from home as much as I should, we're just all living our own college lives. You would think I'd be used to this after 4 years, but I'm really not. When I was down in LA a couple weeks ago, I didn't have that much fun because I missed home...that's when I came to this conclusion -- I always get torn when I have to go from one to another and I go into a depressed retreat for a couple of days, it's my way of adapting back I guess. It's only during those days when I wished I had gone to a college closer by so I can be at home more often...
The feeling goes away pretty soon once I get back into the tune of things though and I realize I chose the best decision for myself. I think I've grown a lot having to go through these constant trials, and it's been part of the college experience. I don't believe you get the same chance if you choose to go to a college where you can go home every weekend or even every other weekend. It's just not the same and you don't leave much room for yourself to grow and learn to be independent. This is coming from a girl who's been sheltered all her life until going away (far far away) for college. I'm pretty sure I wouldn't be as self sufficient as I am now if I had gone to some other college nearby. I'm also pretty sure I wouldn't have let myself meet as many amazing people as I did if I had gone somewhere closer to home. Having to step out of my comfort zone and be put in a place completely foreign to me has given me a chance of a lifetime in terms of education, knowledge, friends, and opportunities. I'm still really glad I chose the life I'm living now =)
These past few days have been inching closer and closer to my 21st birthday and I couldn't be more excited. I'm not even doing anything big, just a couple of plans with some very close friends that I'm more than happy to be able to hang out with. But the 21st is something I've been looking forward to for a long time, and I still can't believe it's only 5 days away. I would like to thank the government for giving my a jury duty notice, but hopefully I won't have to come in *crosses fingers* haha. I guess I'll try to update after all the festivities are over...until then I'm ending this note with Super Junior's new song No Other, because it has such a summery and lovely feel to it. The boys have done it again and after watching their live performances I'm proud to say they've become the best in the business...nobody can perform live like they do!
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