She speaks?
Yeah.
I haven't posted here in a long time because I haven't had anything to say. Before it was always extreme happy/excitement or ranting/venting.
I HAVE been reading my f-list and keeping up on that pretty well. If I haven't commented, it's because I'm pretty silent. If I have...well than it was probably pretty simple.
I'm in one of the worst depressions I have been in, ever. 5 or 6 years ago I was almost this bad. The difference between then and now is that I have more things that make me happy and life overall is better...things that keep me occupied. But it's still been really really bad.
I started taking meds again, FINALLY.
I'm only a consistent week into them. It's hard because I know my head is telling me lots of lies about lots of things. Logically I know what's going on. Emotionally I feel like it's never going to get better and the fight is just not worth it.
Yesterday I had about a 5 or 6 hour window where I felt like ME. That's pretty sucky.
Thanksgiving, Christmas, and NYE was pretty good with family and friends. But I never really got into the spirit of the season.
My birthday is next week and I'm super busy and it's all good. I just wish it FELT good.
Also, I leave in 12 days to go to Phoenix for Mary Kay Training. I am REALLY looking forward to that. I'm hoping the drugs and the change in atmosphere (and WARMTH!) will reset my brain to come home and be better. Of course I'm hoping for some of that to happen sooner rather than later, but it IS a bright spot.
That's about all I've got to say right now.
I haven't posted here in a long time because I haven't had anything to say. Before it was always extreme happy/excitement or ranting/venting.
I HAVE been reading my f-list and keeping up on that pretty well. If I haven't commented, it's because I'm pretty silent. If I have...well than it was probably pretty simple.
I'm in one of the worst depressions I have been in, ever. 5 or 6 years ago I was almost this bad. The difference between then and now is that I have more things that make me happy and life overall is better...things that keep me occupied. But it's still been really really bad.
I started taking meds again, FINALLY.
I'm only a consistent week into them. It's hard because I know my head is telling me lots of lies about lots of things. Logically I know what's going on. Emotionally I feel like it's never going to get better and the fight is just not worth it.
Yesterday I had about a 5 or 6 hour window where I felt like ME. That's pretty sucky.
Thanksgiving, Christmas, and NYE was pretty good with family and friends. But I never really got into the spirit of the season.
My birthday is next week and I'm super busy and it's all good. I just wish it FELT good.
Also, I leave in 12 days to go to Phoenix for Mary Kay Training. I am REALLY looking forward to that. I'm hoping the drugs and the change in atmosphere (and WARMTH!) will reset my brain to come home and be better. Of course I'm hoping for some of that to happen sooner rather than later, but it IS a bright spot.
That's about all I've got to say right now.