*sigh*

May 03, 2004 02:47

Lonely. This seems like the only safe place to say it without qualification or apology because in actual conversation I feel the need to present my highest self. Not that I lie or repress, just that there are feelings and then there are opinions, and they're different and sometimes feelings are base and unjustifiable. I don't want them to be mistaken for actual opinions.

I'm not crying anymore - I haven't for a while. I'm handling this better than i have in the past. I'm still very sad and regretful and lonely and not always optimistic.

I went out with Saul tonight to smoke and drink soda and eat at Denny's and it was really nice. We spent most of the time talking about relatively neutral stuff and that was good. As soon as I got in the door, though, I just felt melancholy and alone. I just can't wait until this period of time has passed.
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