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yeah... I just got called an asshole... by Krissy... you guys don't really know her, but she's one of my closest friends... and then another friend, Jess... was acting weird too... but now I'm beginning to see, that life isn't always what you want it to be, and friends don't always like you... or talk to you... but one thing will remain the same, you have a life to live, and you can make something great out of yourself. But I want to make it clear as to what I believe is involved in that statement. You can't do it on your own. Friends are like angels, there to pick you up when you fall, there to talk to, to have fun, to be able to go to them for advice, that's what friends are. And I know I'm definitely not like that. I'm NOT trying to be negative or anything because I know a lot of you think I'm very negative. And then recently I heard that some people think that I "act" depressed for "pity", and I just wanted to say... WTF?!?!?!?! How the hell can you think that?! All I did was express my sadness for Mary, and to give her MY sympathy, is something wrong with that? How was I supposed to know that someone would say that they're always here for me? isn't that okay? isn't that what friends are supposed to do? and if I were "acting" "depressed" for "pity" then I wouldn't cut myself! (not that I do anymore or anything, because a promise, is a promise) and if you think that's why I cut myself, well then what about you?! I've realized that cutting is stupid, and I'm not afraid to say it. I haven't cut since March and I'm pretty damn proud of that accomplishment. And why, when all I do is put on my journal how I feel, does that make me "screaming for pity"? you don't have to read the damn thing if you don't want to! in fact, I wouldn't blame you because you have enough on your mind other than reading all this shit! I'm sorry to explode right now, but I've just been keeping it all in and I need to let it out someway. You know you all think about how shitty life is, well, instead of keeping all that stuff bottled up inside, I put it on here. I also put some good things on here... sometimes... :P... but yeah... I never get invited to places either. I'm not complaining or anything, but some of you guys say that you never get to see me, and yet, I'm right here and you just don't seem to notice that small little detail. okay... I shall put something nice on here just for your sakes. It is an invitation to my play. It's being put on by a bunch of homeschoolers who love acting. Godspell, July 8, 9. 7:30 p.m. you can get tickets in advance so if you want the number let me know and I'll give it to you. It will be put on at RCTC's Hill Theatre. I hope you all can come, and will leave those dates open. Thank you! :P I shall end this boring post..... now! :P Les Quiero ~Nick