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i'm listening to myself from tonight's live mix and i sound awfully ... energetic. i think that's good? it's been a few days, i know. crazy times; nothing new in the life of choley. it's still local music week here at wers. we had dj melee in tonight for revolutions. it was insanity! that guy can throw down a set. also heard from my friend and fellow revolutions dj will cavali along with rick (who has now been dubbed dj ricochet). my show on tuesday was pretty decent too. eli wilkie was the guest dj and cavali interviewed. rupertmisterie engineered and we discussed the talking heads. i've really been thinking about how i'm going to miss a few people here at WERS a hell of a lot when i'm gone. sure we're not all the closest of friends but we get along great, have a lot of fun and are just free to be ourselves around each other. save for a few people, the environment has been great and really open. i'll really be glad to come back, should they let me when i return. i am worried about that ... a lot of my responsibility has been taken from me in the past few weeks, and i guess i dont blame them. i've been coming across as a bit of a wreck to people. sorry guys.
i saw vta1425 and met his friends the other day. it was an amazing time. we went out to fire and ice and really had a ball. vta1425, i can't wait to come up and see you in vermont!
zls44 was here most of the day today and it was fun. he brought me over to comcast and i finally upgraded the apartment to digital cable. i'm getting used to it ... it can be frustrating but i will figure it out! speaking of home issues, i'm happy to say we have found a roommate for the apartment! his name's ryan and he is a friend of tinyoddjob. he'll be moving in the 31st. i'll be moving most of my stuff out that day but i will be back in boston on the first to stay for another week before heading out for a while.
right now my outlook on things is very short term. more like day to day. today will be busy. seeing jonny schwab, catherine_monk and her puppy, anniechup and ninevolt_999. should be fun times. :D wokq on saturday. anything else ... and other than the very basic of schedules i'm just not thinking about right now.
i am wondering just how long it is going to take for either someone to notice me or or me to notice how i'm not letting anyone notice me because i'm letting me get in the way of me. say that ten times fast.
i've been getting a lot of sit-down talks and frustrated phone calls from people lately about how i'm not putting anything forth to my full potential and how i'm not who i used to be and how no one wants to give me responsibility any longer because they don't trust me ... dudes, i know. i know you all mean well, but instead of criticizing me, just ... i don't know how to take it right now. okay? all i think about these days is how i've let people down and how much of a shithead i am and have been. i know that i screwed up, and i know that i'm late a lot, an i know my heart and my head are just not into everything as they were. i'm so tired. so, so tired. i just want to leave if that's what it takes to get some fucking positivity into my life. i cannot change if i'm continually beaten down. trying to move forward, right? i'm trying to remind myself that it's okay to want to make yourself better.
... and once again i hit the proverbial brick wall of not remembering what i was going to talk about.
i saw vta1425 and met his friends the other day. it was an amazing time. we went out to fire and ice and really had a ball. vta1425, i can't wait to come up and see you in vermont!
zls44 was here most of the day today and it was fun. he brought me over to comcast and i finally upgraded the apartment to digital cable. i'm getting used to it ... it can be frustrating but i will figure it out! speaking of home issues, i'm happy to say we have found a roommate for the apartment! his name's ryan and he is a friend of tinyoddjob. he'll be moving in the 31st. i'll be moving most of my stuff out that day but i will be back in boston on the first to stay for another week before heading out for a while.
right now my outlook on things is very short term. more like day to day. today will be busy. seeing jonny schwab, catherine_monk and her puppy, anniechup and ninevolt_999. should be fun times. :D wokq on saturday. anything else ... and other than the very basic of schedules i'm just not thinking about right now.
i am wondering just how long it is going to take for either someone to notice me or or me to notice how i'm not letting anyone notice me because i'm letting me get in the way of me. say that ten times fast.
i've been getting a lot of sit-down talks and frustrated phone calls from people lately about how i'm not putting anything forth to my full potential and how i'm not who i used to be and how no one wants to give me responsibility any longer because they don't trust me ... dudes, i know. i know you all mean well, but instead of criticizing me, just ... i don't know how to take it right now. okay? all i think about these days is how i've let people down and how much of a shithead i am and have been. i know that i screwed up, and i know that i'm late a lot, an i know my heart and my head are just not into everything as they were. i'm so tired. so, so tired. i just want to leave if that's what it takes to get some fucking positivity into my life. i cannot change if i'm continually beaten down. trying to move forward, right? i'm trying to remind myself that it's okay to want to make yourself better.
... and once again i hit the proverbial brick wall of not remembering what i was going to talk about.