....my much needed update..
Well..well...well... not a whole fucking lot has been going on over here .. I finally got my liscence so now I can drive around anytime I fucking want , been out looking for jobs and all that shit . I've been going swimming a lot well not lately since Justin broke his foot ..but there for awhile we were going out to his mothers apts. and swimming , laying out in the sun , trying to get a nice tan for the summer and shit.. Getting drunk here and there , Robert was back for like 2 weeks got to kick it with him drink some beer.
Some crazy ass shit happened a few days ago ... Im not sure exactly if it was like a seziure or just me passing out and my whole body stiffened up... but I was cooking me and Justin some food and I started to get really fucking hot all of a sudden and I felt like I was going to pass out so I sat down , then got up a couple minutes later , same thing started getting dizzy , lightheaded shit started getting darker in my peripheral vision (sp??) but I ran back to the room and sat down right infront of the air conditioner on the bed and told Justin I felt like I was going to pass out and then I went to lean back on his stomach (I thought I had said something at that point) but Justin said I just made this moan like I didnt want to do it .. or didnt want to pass out but I knew i was going to .. and then my body fell and my eyes were open , but in the back of my head.. and my entire body stiffened up and I started to hyperventilate for about 30 seconds I was unresponsive and then .. I had this feeling like I was pissing myself so I woke up... I didnt piss myself .. but .. i dont know .. to me when I was gone or whatever I felt like I was asleep .. like right before you wake up .. when your like inbetween the dream world / reality ... crazy shit .. everyones telling me I should go to the doctor but I dont have any money .. so I dont know. and right afterwards like 2 minutes after I came back too I got sick and puked then felt extremely fucking tired like I had been up on meth for a week , so I just fell asleep. Then for the next few days I was just really really tired , like overly tired . I dont know.. weird weird weird.. I probably should get that checked out.
I havent been drinking as much as usual .. not like the old days. I dont drink for shit , I dont even drink beer half the time when its offered to me , I dont know .. I think my stomach is just tired of alcohol , it seems everytime I try to drink something I get extremely fucking sick , not from.. "not being able to hold my liquor" because its not like that , its just like an automatic reaction , even to beer .. except with beer Ill start feeling really fucking sick like later on that night and end up puking up all that beer ... I guess drinking the beer in the morning/afternoon on a summer day wasnt too bright either.. but ah well.. atleast Im not downing vodka almost everynight anymore.
Im trying to cut back on smoking pot too , seems to me like I need to get my priorities straightened out and theres no chance in hell Im going to do that getting high all day everyday .. It just makes me so unmotivated , I dont ever feel like doing shit when Im high I just want to sit there and stay quiet and wait for my high to slowly fade away only to do it again.. its just getting really old..
I had a chance to do the 2c-I shit but.... a bunch of nonsence drama bullshit fucking crap!!!!!!! happened and Justin decided to make it his own drama so we didnt go.. even though it was payed for already.. but I guess I dont need to be doing that kind of shit anyways..
Anyways... I just came by here to drop off some laundry get clean clothes and update so Ill be back by tomorrow to pick it up . later~~~
nicholeeo~~~
aka molly the mushroom!!
Some crazy ass shit happened a few days ago ... Im not sure exactly if it was like a seziure or just me passing out and my whole body stiffened up... but I was cooking me and Justin some food and I started to get really fucking hot all of a sudden and I felt like I was going to pass out so I sat down , then got up a couple minutes later , same thing started getting dizzy , lightheaded shit started getting darker in my peripheral vision (sp??) but I ran back to the room and sat down right infront of the air conditioner on the bed and told Justin I felt like I was going to pass out and then I went to lean back on his stomach (I thought I had said something at that point) but Justin said I just made this moan like I didnt want to do it .. or didnt want to pass out but I knew i was going to .. and then my body fell and my eyes were open , but in the back of my head.. and my entire body stiffened up and I started to hyperventilate for about 30 seconds I was unresponsive and then .. I had this feeling like I was pissing myself so I woke up... I didnt piss myself .. but .. i dont know .. to me when I was gone or whatever I felt like I was asleep .. like right before you wake up .. when your like inbetween the dream world / reality ... crazy shit .. everyones telling me I should go to the doctor but I dont have any money .. so I dont know. and right afterwards like 2 minutes after I came back too I got sick and puked then felt extremely fucking tired like I had been up on meth for a week , so I just fell asleep. Then for the next few days I was just really really tired , like overly tired . I dont know.. weird weird weird.. I probably should get that checked out.
I havent been drinking as much as usual .. not like the old days. I dont drink for shit , I dont even drink beer half the time when its offered to me , I dont know .. I think my stomach is just tired of alcohol , it seems everytime I try to drink something I get extremely fucking sick , not from.. "not being able to hold my liquor" because its not like that , its just like an automatic reaction , even to beer .. except with beer Ill start feeling really fucking sick like later on that night and end up puking up all that beer ... I guess drinking the beer in the morning/afternoon on a summer day wasnt too bright either.. but ah well.. atleast Im not downing vodka almost everynight anymore.
Im trying to cut back on smoking pot too , seems to me like I need to get my priorities straightened out and theres no chance in hell Im going to do that getting high all day everyday .. It just makes me so unmotivated , I dont ever feel like doing shit when Im high I just want to sit there and stay quiet and wait for my high to slowly fade away only to do it again.. its just getting really old..
I had a chance to do the 2c-I shit but.... a bunch of nonsence drama bullshit fucking crap!!!!!!! happened and Justin decided to make it his own drama so we didnt go.. even though it was payed for already.. but I guess I dont need to be doing that kind of shit anyways..
Anyways... I just came by here to drop off some laundry get clean clothes and update so Ill be back by tomorrow to pick it up . later~~~
nicholeeo~~~
aka molly the mushroom!!