Mar 31, 2005 12:32
SO .. I've been missing in action for like the past 2897839751307859047 fucking weeks ... I guess I tend to get sucked back into that blackhole quite often. I've been reading my drivers manual I plan on taking the written test or whatever tomorrow to just go ahead and try because I really need to get my fucking permit. Thinks will be a lot smoother around here once I do. Crazy shit has happened over at the blackholes house. Well .. okay I guess I can stop calling him "the blackhole" and call him Justin . But I guess we have reached a new understanding some of you already know this but Im still just putting it out there... I've been going on lots of picnics.. well .. anytime the weather is nice and all perfect outside atleast , thats been real fun. I gave a homeless guy a roach (which he loved!!) a ciggarette , and the last of my 3$ Thats pretty fucking nice , considering I dont work at the Schlong anymore. Oh yeah. I quit my job .. the "initial" reason IS NOT because I cant wear my lip ring that was just "the straw that broke the camels back" I guess you could say . I had gone through too much bullshit at that bitch for only getting paid 5.70 , making only 200$ every 2 weeks.. and then .. for them to want me to take out this damn near 40$ piercing out for them .. phhhhhht.. whatever they can go eat a fucking dick for all I care.
Anyways yeah .. I dont remember if I posted or not , but I got my lip pierced yey . Didnt really hurt at all much to my suprise. ummmmmmmm....
heh heh heh ... crazy things have happened >) those who reallllly know me .. take a wild guess ... heh heh heh ...
uuhhh... I miss all of my fucking friends and IM WORKING ON IT DAMN IT !! Eventually I'll learn how to balance out my time that I give to people.
I've had this really weird desire to just... give like... :sigh: all of my undivided attention to someone .. someone to just care about and just .. pay attention to,be around, laugh with , sleep in the same bed with , etc... just .. someone to really care after.. and yeah .. give all my attention to.
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But Im sloooowly realizing that I should be directing that attention torwards myself rather anyone else at this time.. because I really need some fucking attention .. atleast from me. I need to get my head put on straight and get my priorities in gear. I need to get a job , I need to get my liscence , my GED .. all of this shit ..
but Im just so fucking passive when it comes to myself. I dont know . One thing I need to work on.
... umm... Im sure I have much more to say that I just cant think about now because I took a bunch of lortabs last night ... so Ill get back to everyone .
I love / miss you guys.
nicholeeo ~~~~
NO FUCKING PICO DE MAYO !!