Hmm....
I guess I havnt really been up to doing anything lately .. I hung out with Angel and Joel a couple of nights ago as some of you already can tell from the drunken rants on the message boards ... then I went and hung out with Justin for a couple of days .. drank some more beer took some more valiums and lortabs as usual.. Went to work the next day .. came back and fell asleep and then here I am. Not much excitment. hmm... I need to start.. I dont know .. balancing out the time that I spend with my friends more often .. I hate the way I feel when I'm always over at justins house day after day .. It just gets sooo fucking depressing. BLAH . I dont know . I am just really not to happy with the way things are going in my life right now.. Seems like its all going downhill ... and with each day that passes I grow more and more depressed. alk;dn ;iladjfaldsjfv aklusdraiusd;kasdhf;aksdj;ioruaeslk ;rjvieunt aklsd ue suck asdkl;fiauesf n;itub ;kutuaes;iut;elitu;sedlktuidautjieasut;vaiesutaetuai;t life is teh gay.
I need to get out of this state... if only for a little while ... Just get away from everything .. everyone .. and clear my mind ... find myself again... Maybe then I'll know what its like to be content again.
I mean after hanging out with Angel and Joel I felt much more motivated to do something with myself.. but then after all was said and done I just fall back into the same loop again.
... *sigh* anyways .. sorry for ranting .. I just havnt said this really to anyone else..and its been bothering me... Depression is not a fun thing :P but yeah .. Im really tired and I feel pathetic. lol .. so I think I'm just going to go sleep the rest of my day away. See everyone later.
I need to get out of this state... if only for a little while ... Just get away from everything .. everyone .. and clear my mind ... find myself again... Maybe then I'll know what its like to be content again.
I mean after hanging out with Angel and Joel I felt much more motivated to do something with myself.. but then after all was said and done I just fall back into the same loop again.
... *sigh* anyways .. sorry for ranting .. I just havnt said this really to anyone else..and its been bothering me... Depression is not a fun thing :P but yeah .. Im really tired and I feel pathetic. lol .. so I think I'm just going to go sleep the rest of my day away. See everyone later.