To Samantha ... (sorry its so long , but if you value this friendship you'll read all of it)
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1. Get Motor Mount fixed...
2. Get oil leak fixed
3. Get suspension fixed
4. Get CD player and speakers installed
5. Get a fucking HAIRCUT!!
6. Buy some fucking WINTER CLOTHES!!!! crimeny!!
7. Buy XMAS PRESENTS!!!!!!!!!
8. Save for sr20 swap
9. Move the fuck out.
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how about ......
10.MAKE SOME TIME FOR YOUR FUCKING FRIENDS!!!!!!????
Okay ... first of all .. I am not mad at Christian .. I am not placing any blame on him.. this is strictly on you, just so you know .
I have gotten really fucking tired of your endless apologies of leaving me hanging and ditching me .. for whatever excuse you can seem to come up with at the time... I mean ... We used to be really fucking close back in the day .. like 4 years ago .. we were practically fucking attatched at the hip. You met me at the perfect time in your life , you were going through some really harsh times and so was I .. so it kind of worked out I guess .. we both just sort of helped heal eachothers wounds ... and helped eachother to grow. Then Tony came along... Everything was cool with that at first .. I mean you still managed to balance time with your love of your life and your friends pretty evenly... but then .. you got kind of ... obsessed ... and then your whole fucking world revolved around Tony. ... I didn't agree with it .. in fact I remember I used to hate Tony (lol) but now those selfish feelings are long gone.. I came to love that crazy penguin lovin asian <3 ... and eventually you learned how to balance your time out again... but regardless .... I stuck around. I was there when you guys fought ... when you were so close to breaking up all those times..I was a shoulder for you to cry on and someone for you to talk to ... (you know I make a good listener) Then I guess we kind of .. grew apart in our likes/wants/everything .. and kind of went our seperate ways , but we still kept in contact and told eachother about all the major things that had gone on .. and in a way it helped.Then slowly but surely .. I started to break away from some bad things in my life... and you started to come around a lot more .. then You and Tony broke up .. and .. I was there for you, just like a best friend should be. I listened to you talk about him all the time , talking about how everything reminded you of him .. how you didn't know if you would get over him.. then how slowly hanging out with me and getting out was helping you overcome the breakup... Then we made a pact (which would of been broken by either one of us .. so .. thats not a big deal) that we would stay single atleast for a little while , so we could find ourselves and figure out what eachother wanted/needed to make us happy before we start trying to make someone else happy ...
And then ... You start making plans with me... for us to just hang out .. and do stupid shit that .. I dont know .. it doesnt have to be fucking meaningful.. atleast we would of been hanging out with eachother , enjoying eachothers company.. but for some odd reason.. you dont call .. you dont show up.. and I dont hear from you for a couple of days. Then you call and apologize over and over again about how sorry you were .. you had an oil leak .. you couldnt drive (although I found out you drove to fucking moore to go see christian and I only live a blocks away) .. we had plans to go hang out and just chill .. doing something ... (then I find out you "forgot to turn your phone on" and got caught up in RACING with christian) ... then another time we were supposed to hang out .. and then you tell me that .. once again .. you were racing with Christian and manage to FORGET YOUR FUCKING PHONE .. (although both of them had cellphones) and so you couldnt call me to let me know that we couldnt hang out) then there's numerous other times that we were supposed to hang out and .. I didn't hear anything.. for fucking days... just like a couple of days ago .. you came over and hung out with me for like. . a whole hour .. (and I hadnt seen you for a week .. probably because you ditched me the last time we were SUPPOSED to hang out) and your bring me a fucking 8$ Ouija Board in hopes of buying off my fucking forgivness. Then you make plans with Kevin and I to go eat at the Red Cup the next day .. knowing that you would be the ride... and you left.. and where did you fucking go .. heh .. Christians. I called.Then I called again .. and again .. and even left messages on your cell phone *which btw I know you get them because you couldnt stop messaging xtian while you were at the trailer* and I had no word from you all day .. so I decided to make plans with someone else. .... and yet again .. I STILL havnt fucking heard from you since then. And where do I find out you've been ? Stuck up some guys ass you havnt known for probably more then fucking 6 months. Samantha I have been there for you for fucking over 3 years. Thats quite a big difference.
Dont get me wrong. I like Christian.. I think he's a pretty fucking cool guy , he's really easy to hang out with , I had fun while I hung out with him... and I don't feel he's "stealing you away" because your right. It is your fucking choice. Thats why I am coming down on you so hard , because you should fucking know better then to ditch your friend of over 3 years for some guy you think you love... (we'll see about that one in a couple of months) I mean ... when you broke up with Tony .. I knew how big of an impact that was going to make on you .. or did . .. whatever. I knew how bad that you would be hurting , so I gladly made plans to focus most of my attention on you and see that you were doing okay ,dealing with the breakup alright , not thinking of doing anything crazy , making sure that you knew you could live without him in your life ... just being there for you.
... and now .. it's like all of that attention I placed in you was for nothing. Just so you can spit it right back in my face like you never fucking wanted it... or you just used me as some shoulder you could cry on that was comfortable. Something "safe" , someone you've known as long as him .. that knows everything you've been through and how you were feeling .. but .. I would figure you wouldnt only need me in the bad times of your life , I would like to believe that you enjoy spending time with me ... I mean .. I thought that was a big reason on why you spent so much time with me.
...Then it turns out that half of the shit you had been feeding me was BULLSHIT. Just LIE after LIE after every fucking LIE. Telling me one thing , then telling someone else something different. Your excuses never added up . You kept falling through on your plans. I mean .. what does that say Samantha? That sure does show a lot of fucking respect.
And another thing... you wanna talk about how you like spending time with Christian because he doesnt talk about any drama bullshit .. he's not all caught up in gossip or drugs. FUCK THAT . jesus you make me fucking sick with that stupid ass shit. Who the fuck is caught up in drugs? The most I fucking do now .. (ON A DAILY BASIS) is smoke fucking weed (and YOU DO THE SAME THING) ... and then I get drunk (but everynow and then you fucking drink too) so FUCK that bitch ass comment. It's total bullshit and you know it. and WHAT THE FUCK is up with "hes not all caught up in drama and bullshit" .... Bitch. That was all you had to talk about was YOUR fucking DRAMA and YOUR fucking BULLSHIT when you came over . And I just sat there and fucking listened ... thinking it would make you feel better and that eventually you would find something else to talk about.
I mean come on Samantha . Your calling us boring? [by us i mean Angel and I]
The only thing you had to talk about ... was lets see...
... how hurt you were over tony (not boring .. just saying)
.... how great your buisness was going
... what plans you had on your buisness (which is worthless now)
... your new car
... fixin up your car
... having no music in your car
... racing your car
... your phone
..taking pictures on your phone
... christian ..
...more christian..
.. and more fucking car bullshit...
Pretty much always talking and trying to make it seem like everything in your life is just that much better then everyone else around you... I guess that makes you feel better.
Needless to say...
.. I'm tired of you being a fucking dead-beat 'friend' ... shit .. I shouldnt even call you a friend , because you havn't even proven that worthy lately. But yeah .. I still have hope for you. I remember when Tony called me a "lost cause of a friend" and who was there for you after he left you for someone else? I FUCKING WAS!! But... maybe theres an ounce of worthiness inside of you.. somewhere... I guess its just hard to let go of someone you've gone through so much with for about 4 years.. hmm... I guess I need to wrap this up..
If you want to still be my friend say something.. prove it to me , because just like Angel .. I refuse to be a friend to your convenience.
If you don't want to be my friend.. I'll try my best to forget about our friendship , because from what it looks like you've already accomplished that.
1. Get Motor Mount fixed...
2. Get oil leak fixed
3. Get suspension fixed
4. Get CD player and speakers installed
5. Get a fucking HAIRCUT!!
6. Buy some fucking WINTER CLOTHES!!!! crimeny!!
7. Buy XMAS PRESENTS!!!!!!!!!
8. Save for sr20 swap
9. Move the fuck out.
-----------------------------------
how about ......
10.MAKE SOME TIME FOR YOUR FUCKING FRIENDS!!!!!!????
Okay ... first of all .. I am not mad at Christian .. I am not placing any blame on him.. this is strictly on you, just so you know .
I have gotten really fucking tired of your endless apologies of leaving me hanging and ditching me .. for whatever excuse you can seem to come up with at the time... I mean ... We used to be really fucking close back in the day .. like 4 years ago .. we were practically fucking attatched at the hip. You met me at the perfect time in your life , you were going through some really harsh times and so was I .. so it kind of worked out I guess .. we both just sort of helped heal eachothers wounds ... and helped eachother to grow. Then Tony came along... Everything was cool with that at first .. I mean you still managed to balance time with your love of your life and your friends pretty evenly... but then .. you got kind of ... obsessed ... and then your whole fucking world revolved around Tony. ... I didn't agree with it .. in fact I remember I used to hate Tony (lol) but now those selfish feelings are long gone.. I came to love that crazy penguin lovin asian <3 ... and eventually you learned how to balance your time out again... but regardless .... I stuck around. I was there when you guys fought ... when you were so close to breaking up all those times..I was a shoulder for you to cry on and someone for you to talk to ... (you know I make a good listener) Then I guess we kind of .. grew apart in our likes/wants/everything .. and kind of went our seperate ways , but we still kept in contact and told eachother about all the major things that had gone on .. and in a way it helped.Then slowly but surely .. I started to break away from some bad things in my life... and you started to come around a lot more .. then You and Tony broke up .. and .. I was there for you, just like a best friend should be. I listened to you talk about him all the time , talking about how everything reminded you of him .. how you didn't know if you would get over him.. then how slowly hanging out with me and getting out was helping you overcome the breakup... Then we made a pact (which would of been broken by either one of us .. so .. thats not a big deal) that we would stay single atleast for a little while , so we could find ourselves and figure out what eachother wanted/needed to make us happy before we start trying to make someone else happy ...
And then ... You start making plans with me... for us to just hang out .. and do stupid shit that .. I dont know .. it doesnt have to be fucking meaningful.. atleast we would of been hanging out with eachother , enjoying eachothers company.. but for some odd reason.. you dont call .. you dont show up.. and I dont hear from you for a couple of days. Then you call and apologize over and over again about how sorry you were .. you had an oil leak .. you couldnt drive (although I found out you drove to fucking moore to go see christian and I only live a blocks away) .. we had plans to go hang out and just chill .. doing something ... (then I find out you "forgot to turn your phone on" and got caught up in RACING with christian) ... then another time we were supposed to hang out .. and then you tell me that .. once again .. you were racing with Christian and manage to FORGET YOUR FUCKING PHONE .. (although both of them had cellphones) and so you couldnt call me to let me know that we couldnt hang out) then there's numerous other times that we were supposed to hang out and .. I didn't hear anything.. for fucking days... just like a couple of days ago .. you came over and hung out with me for like. . a whole hour .. (and I hadnt seen you for a week .. probably because you ditched me the last time we were SUPPOSED to hang out) and your bring me a fucking 8$ Ouija Board in hopes of buying off my fucking forgivness. Then you make plans with Kevin and I to go eat at the Red Cup the next day .. knowing that you would be the ride... and you left.. and where did you fucking go .. heh .. Christians. I called.Then I called again .. and again .. and even left messages on your cell phone *which btw I know you get them because you couldnt stop messaging xtian while you were at the trailer* and I had no word from you all day .. so I decided to make plans with someone else. .... and yet again .. I STILL havnt fucking heard from you since then. And where do I find out you've been ? Stuck up some guys ass you havnt known for probably more then fucking 6 months. Samantha I have been there for you for fucking over 3 years. Thats quite a big difference.
Dont get me wrong. I like Christian.. I think he's a pretty fucking cool guy , he's really easy to hang out with , I had fun while I hung out with him... and I don't feel he's "stealing you away" because your right. It is your fucking choice. Thats why I am coming down on you so hard , because you should fucking know better then to ditch your friend of over 3 years for some guy you think you love... (we'll see about that one in a couple of months) I mean ... when you broke up with Tony .. I knew how big of an impact that was going to make on you .. or did . .. whatever. I knew how bad that you would be hurting , so I gladly made plans to focus most of my attention on you and see that you were doing okay ,dealing with the breakup alright , not thinking of doing anything crazy , making sure that you knew you could live without him in your life ... just being there for you.
... and now .. it's like all of that attention I placed in you was for nothing. Just so you can spit it right back in my face like you never fucking wanted it... or you just used me as some shoulder you could cry on that was comfortable. Something "safe" , someone you've known as long as him .. that knows everything you've been through and how you were feeling .. but .. I would figure you wouldnt only need me in the bad times of your life , I would like to believe that you enjoy spending time with me ... I mean .. I thought that was a big reason on why you spent so much time with me.
...Then it turns out that half of the shit you had been feeding me was BULLSHIT. Just LIE after LIE after every fucking LIE. Telling me one thing , then telling someone else something different. Your excuses never added up . You kept falling through on your plans. I mean .. what does that say Samantha? That sure does show a lot of fucking respect.
And another thing... you wanna talk about how you like spending time with Christian because he doesnt talk about any drama bullshit .. he's not all caught up in gossip or drugs. FUCK THAT . jesus you make me fucking sick with that stupid ass shit. Who the fuck is caught up in drugs? The most I fucking do now .. (ON A DAILY BASIS) is smoke fucking weed (and YOU DO THE SAME THING) ... and then I get drunk (but everynow and then you fucking drink too) so FUCK that bitch ass comment. It's total bullshit and you know it. and WHAT THE FUCK is up with "hes not all caught up in drama and bullshit" .... Bitch. That was all you had to talk about was YOUR fucking DRAMA and YOUR fucking BULLSHIT when you came over . And I just sat there and fucking listened ... thinking it would make you feel better and that eventually you would find something else to talk about.
I mean come on Samantha . Your calling us boring? [by us i mean Angel and I]
The only thing you had to talk about ... was lets see...
... how hurt you were over tony (not boring .. just saying)
.... how great your buisness was going
... what plans you had on your buisness (which is worthless now)
... your new car
... fixin up your car
... having no music in your car
... racing your car
... your phone
..taking pictures on your phone
... christian ..
...more christian..
.. and more fucking car bullshit...
Pretty much always talking and trying to make it seem like everything in your life is just that much better then everyone else around you... I guess that makes you feel better.
Needless to say...
.. I'm tired of you being a fucking dead-beat 'friend' ... shit .. I shouldnt even call you a friend , because you havn't even proven that worthy lately. But yeah .. I still have hope for you. I remember when Tony called me a "lost cause of a friend" and who was there for you after he left you for someone else? I FUCKING WAS!! But... maybe theres an ounce of worthiness inside of you.. somewhere... I guess its just hard to let go of someone you've gone through so much with for about 4 years.. hmm... I guess I need to wrap this up..
If you want to still be my friend say something.. prove it to me , because just like Angel .. I refuse to be a friend to your convenience.
If you don't want to be my friend.. I'll try my best to forget about our friendship , because from what it looks like you've already accomplished that.