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alaska was just as amazing as i knew it was going to be. i keep wanting to sit down and write but for some reason cannot find the time because real life things are actually getting in the way for once. i volunteer a lot these days and spend a lot of time with family and friends. it has started to overwhelm me as of lately because ever since i felt so perfect there things here haven't quite made it worth it. i'm really thinking of going instead of staying. where i will go i'm not sure of yet. alaska is an option but there are other places too. i'm thinking of actually being brave and taking a chance. but my time at pcc is not over and i have another year of school and living at home no matter how much i want to pack up and go. that swamp land you see up above has got to be one of the most memorable places jessica ever showed me. i have dreams about it mixed with the people i fell in love with and it makes my heart stop. but for now portland is home. and i'm okay with that. really, i am.