it's weird
i'm over her. i told her i was.
i still have to call and ask amber for the song.
it explains a lot to not only her. but also me? if that makes sense
like it puts me into my understanding. definite's. i like songs.
so... this is the kicker
it's not that i don't see her in my future...i don't see a wife in my future
and i figure that's what she expects.
and i want her to live her life these next four years. not waiting on me...because...im a flake
im not a good guy...and i dont want to be a let down.
but at the same time...when i read that the night after she messed around with me she went to a party and was "loud with a boy in the bathroom" "someone couldn't sleep" because of it..
god damn does that hurt my manhood. i'm sure ill be me and go after a whole bunch of girls to soon realize that i dont want any of them..and probably wasn't getting most of them....and the ones i would were whores. then i'll go into the "fuck girls" state again. school will start. and i'll be me. getting my education. enjoying friends. living life. just waiting till the day i graduate and do what i've always wanted to do. be a business man. whether that be at a company that i start. adobe like company. something that my uncle does... or nothing at all(due to real estate).
in other words.
old loves still hurt.
new ones are hard to find.
i'll live life until the day
education and careers pull me out.
i still have to call and ask amber for the song.
it explains a lot to not only her. but also me? if that makes sense
like it puts me into my understanding. definite's. i like songs.
so... this is the kicker
it's not that i don't see her in my future...i don't see a wife in my future
and i figure that's what she expects.
and i want her to live her life these next four years. not waiting on me...because...im a flake
im not a good guy...and i dont want to be a let down.
but at the same time...when i read that the night after she messed around with me she went to a party and was "loud with a boy in the bathroom" "someone couldn't sleep" because of it..
god damn does that hurt my manhood. i'm sure ill be me and go after a whole bunch of girls to soon realize that i dont want any of them..and probably wasn't getting most of them....and the ones i would were whores. then i'll go into the "fuck girls" state again. school will start. and i'll be me. getting my education. enjoying friends. living life. just waiting till the day i graduate and do what i've always wanted to do. be a business man. whether that be at a company that i start. adobe like company. something that my uncle does... or nothing at all(due to real estate).
in other words.
old loves still hurt.
new ones are hard to find.
i'll live life until the day
education and careers pull me out.