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The last week has been strange.
And now I am exhausted mentally and a little overwhelmed by my spiral thinking habits.
I'm pissed off and somethings I can't change because I can't change other people. If someone decides to do something that makes no sense to you, what can you do but toughen up and try to forget?
I feel washed in nostalgia from an innocent place of video games and old stories.
I read a pile of old emails and love letters from lovers of my past and felt my heart ache for so many different reasons, though none were really wanting someone back.
I'm straight out flattered and floored by an expression of interest in me that I did not expect at all.
And even with my bad habit of reminiscing, I am so very confident that I'm growing. I'm treating someone who loves me with the respect and trust I hope so hard I'm also getting back.
Old me would've said fuck it, or barely even thought of anything that'd hold me back. Now I'd never risk not being able to be the girl that gets to hold his hand. I want to be all his and only his.
If anything else, I think I'm at least a little more secure with myself.
And now I am exhausted mentally and a little overwhelmed by my spiral thinking habits.
I'm pissed off and somethings I can't change because I can't change other people. If someone decides to do something that makes no sense to you, what can you do but toughen up and try to forget?
I feel washed in nostalgia from an innocent place of video games and old stories.
I read a pile of old emails and love letters from lovers of my past and felt my heart ache for so many different reasons, though none were really wanting someone back.
I'm straight out flattered and floored by an expression of interest in me that I did not expect at all.
And even with my bad habit of reminiscing, I am so very confident that I'm growing. I'm treating someone who loves me with the respect and trust I hope so hard I'm also getting back.
Old me would've said fuck it, or barely even thought of anything that'd hold me back. Now I'd never risk not being able to be the girl that gets to hold his hand. I want to be all his and only his.
If anything else, I think I'm at least a little more secure with myself.