A ficlet for girlz_kissing
It's not exactly girls kissing. It's just about girls xD And it's somehow about the prompt challenge dops gave us. About EYES. I'm not sure if it fits, but, this is what I wrote on the backside of my paper I finish right now and I thought I would post it. It's unbetaed. Mostly out of matters of time and because I have no beta right now. Ahm.
If somebody would like to beta it (because frankly my english is just not that good, please let me know. I can always repost it :))
Title: Go
Author: nichicreativea.k.a. chono88
Genre: Drama, Angst
Type: Ficlet
Word Count: 264 words
unbetaed
„Then Go. It’s the only thing you can do when somebody disagrees with you anyway“.
It strikes you that she’s right. Because the only thing you ever do when things get rough is find an easy way out. Formulate a nice tight set of words made to soothe a situation and run away before it gets ugly. You’re afraid. You’re afraid of what people might have to say to you. Afraid that they’re right. Afraid that you will lose it and say something you can never take back. You know you frustrate people with this attitude, to have fun when it’s funny and to cry alone instead of looking the situation in its fucking face. Because you’re scared of the consequences, scared that the words will leave you and everything that will stay is a cart full of awkward silences.
You do the same thing with all kinds of relationships. You do it with your mother. Instead of facing things head on, you write her a letter, full of big words and expectations never to be fulfilled. Instead of talking everything out you write down your anger and sorrow and instead of shaking a hand and bowing your head you write a page, a letter, a story. Really anything that expresses what you think and proves to be an easy way out.
And then there’s people coming along that you don’t ever want to hurt with this. With one of your flaws, fleeing included. And you look them in the eyes and you know that you’ve done it again. And the vicious circle continues.
If somebody would like to beta it (because frankly my english is just not that good, please let me know. I can always repost it :))
Title: Go
Author: nichicreativea.k.a. chono88
Genre: Drama, Angst
Type: Ficlet
Word Count: 264 words
unbetaed
„Then Go. It’s the only thing you can do when somebody disagrees with you anyway“.
It strikes you that she’s right. Because the only thing you ever do when things get rough is find an easy way out. Formulate a nice tight set of words made to soothe a situation and run away before it gets ugly. You’re afraid. You’re afraid of what people might have to say to you. Afraid that they’re right. Afraid that you will lose it and say something you can never take back. You know you frustrate people with this attitude, to have fun when it’s funny and to cry alone instead of looking the situation in its fucking face. Because you’re scared of the consequences, scared that the words will leave you and everything that will stay is a cart full of awkward silences.
You do the same thing with all kinds of relationships. You do it with your mother. Instead of facing things head on, you write her a letter, full of big words and expectations never to be fulfilled. Instead of talking everything out you write down your anger and sorrow and instead of shaking a hand and bowing your head you write a page, a letter, a story. Really anything that expresses what you think and proves to be an easy way out.
And then there’s people coming along that you don’t ever want to hurt with this. With one of your flaws, fleeing included. And you look them in the eyes and you know that you’ve done it again. And the vicious circle continues.