My Letter to Steve
Dunno, I've just been thinking about him lately. Probably because his birthday and our anniversary would be coming up soon. I just thought I'd take a minute and write him a letter. Not that he can read it or anything...I don't know, I just need to I guess.
Dear Steve;
It's been such a long time. I miss you every day. Somehow I know you are my soul mate and you're waiting for me up in Heaven. Hopefully you can give the Buckeyes the extra kick they need this year and maybe get us a national championship. Maybe? Anyway, I wanted to write and tell you about how my life is now. Things are pretty good. I'm 28 now, a little older and perhaps wiser. I've been married to a man named Mike for going on 4 years. He's in the Army and a pretty decent guy. We got off to a rough start but I feel like we've worked through it. Marriage isn't as easy as I thought it would be but I'm pretty good at it. Mike worked through his issues and turned out to be a pretty decent man to me too. We have a few issues we need to work on, but that's just how marriage is. I'm sure we would have run into our own issues eventually as well. When times get tough I think about what it would have been like to be married to you, which I know isn't fair to Mike. I know you know how they'd be as well, so I'd just leave it at that. I'll just state that I'm happy, and he makes me happy, and we have a good life. The best thing in my life is my son Alexander, or AJ, as we call him. I can't imagine my life without him and I know you bless him every day and keep watch over him. He's honest to God the most perfect thing ever. I know I never really wanted kids, but life wasn't complete without him. Had things not turned out the way they did I wonder if 1. You and I would have had AJ 2. If we would have been able to have kids 3. How our children't personality would have been different from AJ's. I like to use the word 'rambunctious' when I refer to him. Life just would have been.......different......I suppose. I think I'm always going to feel cheated out of the future we were supposed to have. And the happiness I had. I've found a different kind of happiness with Mike and AJ.
Dear Steve;
It's been such a long time. I miss you every day. Somehow I know you are my soul mate and you're waiting for me up in Heaven. Hopefully you can give the Buckeyes the extra kick they need this year and maybe get us a national championship. Maybe? Anyway, I wanted to write and tell you about how my life is now. Things are pretty good. I'm 28 now, a little older and perhaps wiser. I've been married to a man named Mike for going on 4 years. He's in the Army and a pretty decent guy. We got off to a rough start but I feel like we've worked through it. Marriage isn't as easy as I thought it would be but I'm pretty good at it. Mike worked through his issues and turned out to be a pretty decent man to me too. We have a few issues we need to work on, but that's just how marriage is. I'm sure we would have run into our own issues eventually as well. When times get tough I think about what it would have been like to be married to you, which I know isn't fair to Mike. I know you know how they'd be as well, so I'd just leave it at that. I'll just state that I'm happy, and he makes me happy, and we have a good life. The best thing in my life is my son Alexander, or AJ, as we call him. I can't imagine my life without him and I know you bless him every day and keep watch over him. He's honest to God the most perfect thing ever. I know I never really wanted kids, but life wasn't complete without him. Had things not turned out the way they did I wonder if 1. You and I would have had AJ 2. If we would have been able to have kids 3. How our children't personality would have been different from AJ's. I like to use the word 'rambunctious' when I refer to him. Life just would have been.......different......I suppose. I think I'm always going to feel cheated out of the future we were supposed to have. And the happiness I had. I've found a different kind of happiness with Mike and AJ.