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i have written about 3 entries and just ended up emailing them to myself. its good that way-- i get it out of me. all the anger and frustration with people who dont take the time to know both sides of any story. there are always two sides. always.
megan i wrote a comment for you. i dont know if you will read this or it first. so there you go. read your comments in your lj.
jenni i wrote one to you. an entry. but i just ended up sending it to myself rather than put it on here. because its obvious no one is intrested in hearing what i have to say. ill email it to you.
i think i have done a really good job of directing my anger and my sadness to the right places. and not outwardly at people who by all accounts say they are friends, and yet refuse to speak the truth.
i failed one major time in honesty. and if you know me in the slightest you would know that honesty was always a major key in my life. i cant claim it, but i will advocate it. i can still say be honest in all things. even if i get lashed at in return. because i deserve it. what is the statue of limitations on true forgiveness. of letting go.
no one will ever be truly honest. because they are scared and selfish. you cant uninvolve yourself from your friends lives. you are either in or out. i know that and believe in it.
i know one truth. i have been working hard at keeping amanda and i together. i would like to think that people would want that. to keep two people in love together. to see them suceed. and, if there is a time to let it go, that time will be decided by us.
i am far too strong willed and stubborn to sit back and let my amanda go. i love her with everything i have. i know what i want in life way too much to let other people say when my love can be over.
i hope everyone tries to give good, positive advice like megan. megan- you are stubborn impatient person. ME TOO! we all have our faults. but girl you know love when you see it. and you know that when its gone you cant get it back. i am sorry you learned that lesson the way you did. but be glad you did. because the next person you love will thank you for it.
you said 'dont let her go amanda.' such a small sentence gives me hope for friends.
megan i wrote a comment for you. i dont know if you will read this or it first. so there you go. read your comments in your lj.
jenni i wrote one to you. an entry. but i just ended up sending it to myself rather than put it on here. because its obvious no one is intrested in hearing what i have to say. ill email it to you.
i think i have done a really good job of directing my anger and my sadness to the right places. and not outwardly at people who by all accounts say they are friends, and yet refuse to speak the truth.
i failed one major time in honesty. and if you know me in the slightest you would know that honesty was always a major key in my life. i cant claim it, but i will advocate it. i can still say be honest in all things. even if i get lashed at in return. because i deserve it. what is the statue of limitations on true forgiveness. of letting go.
no one will ever be truly honest. because they are scared and selfish. you cant uninvolve yourself from your friends lives. you are either in or out. i know that and believe in it.
i know one truth. i have been working hard at keeping amanda and i together. i would like to think that people would want that. to keep two people in love together. to see them suceed. and, if there is a time to let it go, that time will be decided by us.
i am far too strong willed and stubborn to sit back and let my amanda go. i love her with everything i have. i know what i want in life way too much to let other people say when my love can be over.
i hope everyone tries to give good, positive advice like megan. megan- you are stubborn impatient person. ME TOO! we all have our faults. but girl you know love when you see it. and you know that when its gone you cant get it back. i am sorry you learned that lesson the way you did. but be glad you did. because the next person you love will thank you for it.
you said 'dont let her go amanda.' such a small sentence gives me hope for friends.