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counting x sheep: and i'm trying to be neutral...but it's just like, ripping me apart...or something.
counting x sheep: i feel like i am betraying someone at all times.
ok kittens: why the hell do you feel that
ok kittens: someone is mad at someone else for a new reason every other week tiffy
counting x sheep: i know that.
ok kittens: you cant keep switching from person to person or youd be spread as wide as a whore legs in china
counting x sheep: why can't i do that?
counting x sheep: most the time i do pretty well
ok kittens: no you just chill and are tiffy
ok kittens: thats why i thought you were cool. one of the reasons
ok kittens: cause you didnt give a shit and were just there. a friend for whoever.
counting x sheep: that's like the nicest thing you've said to me
well you know what.
you wanna know what i think of every time i hear of a new fight or a new alliance or whatever i think of one thing. like a few weeks ago courtney and laura were insperable. now laura and jackie are hanging out all the time and courtney and meggy are together this week. i dont know whos mad at barry right now. i havent heard. havent seen you in forever man!
but yeah. someone is mad at erin right now. not sure who or why.
but it changes every week. something new. but its not like a fight happens and it gets yelled about and talked about and its over. its like a "thing" and people change "groups." its the wierdest thing.
what if whoever you are mad at dies tomorrow.
i never let the sun go down on my anger. what if they die.
if amanda and i get into a fight i at least call her before she goes to sleep and say you know what i am sorry. or at least talk and make her say shes sorry. something. anything. other than what the normal is.
but that one thing i think of.
carmen.
when she died everyone came over and hung out and were welcome in everyones group. everything was pushed aside because the greater good was seen. the petty didnt matter because we saw for a moment how short life is and how quickly any one of us could be -gone- just like that.
but after .... i think it took about a week.... things went back to normal and people were getting mad again. and its not the getting mad thing that is rediculous. people fight. we all know that. its the lack of discussion and group changing and saying "hate" and trash talking that is so rediculous. think for 2 seconds next time you say "i am so sick of whoevers crap" and "i dont give a shit about them."
think about carmen. she is gone now. and we all felt like we could have been there. could have done more. wished we were closer before she left us.
counting x sheep: i feel like i am betraying someone at all times.
ok kittens: why the hell do you feel that
ok kittens: someone is mad at someone else for a new reason every other week tiffy
counting x sheep: i know that.
ok kittens: you cant keep switching from person to person or youd be spread as wide as a whore legs in china
counting x sheep: why can't i do that?
counting x sheep: most the time i do pretty well
ok kittens: no you just chill and are tiffy
ok kittens: thats why i thought you were cool. one of the reasons
ok kittens: cause you didnt give a shit and were just there. a friend for whoever.
counting x sheep: that's like the nicest thing you've said to me
well you know what.
you wanna know what i think of every time i hear of a new fight or a new alliance or whatever i think of one thing. like a few weeks ago courtney and laura were insperable. now laura and jackie are hanging out all the time and courtney and meggy are together this week. i dont know whos mad at barry right now. i havent heard. havent seen you in forever man!
but yeah. someone is mad at erin right now. not sure who or why.
but it changes every week. something new. but its not like a fight happens and it gets yelled about and talked about and its over. its like a "thing" and people change "groups." its the wierdest thing.
what if whoever you are mad at dies tomorrow.
i never let the sun go down on my anger. what if they die.
if amanda and i get into a fight i at least call her before she goes to sleep and say you know what i am sorry. or at least talk and make her say shes sorry. something. anything. other than what the normal is.
but that one thing i think of.
carmen.
when she died everyone came over and hung out and were welcome in everyones group. everything was pushed aside because the greater good was seen. the petty didnt matter because we saw for a moment how short life is and how quickly any one of us could be -gone- just like that.
but after .... i think it took about a week.... things went back to normal and people were getting mad again. and its not the getting mad thing that is rediculous. people fight. we all know that. its the lack of discussion and group changing and saying "hate" and trash talking that is so rediculous. think for 2 seconds next time you say "i am so sick of whoevers crap" and "i dont give a shit about them."
think about carmen. she is gone now. and we all felt like we could have been there. could have done more. wished we were closer before she left us.