Sidoni 20

[nicenewra]

She woke up bleeding.
But she'd known she would. She had to. Of late she'd felt over-emotional and raw, and her stomach's moods were just as unpredictable; it would have been too beautiful, too timely, if these were the early signs of nurturing a new life within. She wanted to start a family with him too badly, and it was only appropriate that the

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[kt_investigator]

I can't have children of my own, so this really stung me in profound ways. :<

The writing is so good that I think anyone would be moved though. Very powerful. Poor Sid.

[nicenewra]

Thank you. I'm on the opposite side of the spectrum - I am 100% against getting pregnant again any time soon, so it's hard for me to sympathize with Sidoni's feelings on the matter and I worry about my writing being inauthentic because of that. In some ways, I suppose I'm grateful that it rings true; in others, I wish it didn't. I don't want anyone to be in that sort of situation :(

[kt_investigator]

Well you certainly do an amazing job of dipping into the character and writing from her perspective. It's too easy to let personal feelings color a character, but you've really resisted that.

/applaud

[gilnaendiplomat]

See, I'm sorta both...I probably won't be able to have babies due to years of doing horrible things to my body via eating disorder, AND I dislike kids...yet somehow, stuff like this, AND what my own toon is going through, hits some subconscious part of me in the gut XD

[nicenewra]

I had noooo desire to have a kid, and then I ended up accidentally getting pregnant with my husband's. And I told myself that, as a married woman in a financially & emotionally stable relationship, there was no reasonable excuse for terminating a pregnancy, and now here we are with a 2.5 year old who lights up our lives.

But man oh man, when I remember those first 6 weeks of her life, and the first 18 months of having my boob in her mouth all the time, and how little time I had for myself, and the post-partum depression, and what a wreck it made of my marriage that we're STILL recovering from and might never get past, and now I don't have family around to help me with two, and and and ... yeah. No. No more babies.

Even though he talks about it CONSTANTLY.

[gilnaendiplomat]

Phew, yeah, post-partum is another big thing, mum, sister, both went through it...my mother? WITH FOUR OUTTA SEVEN KIDS. O_o Never mind the bum uterus that runs in the family too. My sister got butchered out of having more, and she's the only one of us who -wanted- a big family.

Yeah, no, babies are for the pretendlands XD