HE RETURNS!
Jake is making me return to this bitch of a site. Lord God help me.
*a note on why I left and where I've been: Brian and I had a very ugly breakup, a lot of what drove me crazy I found online in his journal. This is the second relationship that after reading stuff online that I shouldn't, has made stuff REALLY ugly. Now, while seeing what I did on Sean's computer was important, it still sucks that I had to be so crazy about it. I don't regret it. Whatsoever. But I do wish I never saw it, or if I did, I wish he was there to explain. Really tho Chris, there was nothing to be explained. It was there in black and white and you're obsessing again. It's cuz I'm bored and I don't wanna go to bed like every other defiant child. It's cool to think out there Jellyfish are sleeping tho. Anyhow, in the name of restarting this journal, I am going to feel free to say whatever the FUCK I want to, and I hope it causes some drama for us all to dwell on becuase the Sean thing is SO 5 minutes ago.
FUcK It.
I feel really fat - I ate Chineesee (I have NO idea how to spell that - I don't care. ew asians.) Katie's attracted to a black man. I told her to shower and wash those dirty unholy thoughts out of her head.
I watch a lot of TV.
I'm thinking about doing a porn with Brad (aka www.AlexDark.com) over break. Jake would kill me. But I think it'd be fun.
I'm too chicken shit baby, don't worry.
Or am I?
I'm going to blatently cheat on my exam tomorrow. And I have no other way to take that test. I am SUCH a bad person.
Jake's ignoring me. I think we're on rough waters. I'm probably paranoid. But the last time a boy got sick for a few days and ignored me, we broke up. Bad. Ew. Doug. What the fuck was I thikning.
We were actually conceptualizing a double-date with me and Jake and him and Brad porn-star guy. (Not MY porn-star friend named Brad tho. Funny how I've met two pornstars this semester both named Brad) The last guy I knew named Brad was Brad Enlow from grade school. Wonder how he's doing. I think about that a lot.
What about the people you knew when you were SO young like that. I bet they could tell you stories about yourself that you would NEVER believe. & vice versa.
I should have been an artist.
"There's no greater power than the power of goodbye." WHat a gay line.
I can't wait to go home and see people. It's gonna be awesome! I'm gonna get so drunk and high it'll be rediculous!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But seriously kids, Daddy's becoming an alcoholic and this year you're not getting any Christmas presents. Sorry Jimmy. Stop playing with the empty bottles and your life-support tube and GO TO BED!
*a note on why I left and where I've been: Brian and I had a very ugly breakup, a lot of what drove me crazy I found online in his journal. This is the second relationship that after reading stuff online that I shouldn't, has made stuff REALLY ugly. Now, while seeing what I did on Sean's computer was important, it still sucks that I had to be so crazy about it. I don't regret it. Whatsoever. But I do wish I never saw it, or if I did, I wish he was there to explain. Really tho Chris, there was nothing to be explained. It was there in black and white and you're obsessing again. It's cuz I'm bored and I don't wanna go to bed like every other defiant child. It's cool to think out there Jellyfish are sleeping tho. Anyhow, in the name of restarting this journal, I am going to feel free to say whatever the FUCK I want to, and I hope it causes some drama for us all to dwell on becuase the Sean thing is SO 5 minutes ago.
FUcK It.
I feel really fat - I ate Chineesee (I have NO idea how to spell that - I don't care. ew asians.) Katie's attracted to a black man. I told her to shower and wash those dirty unholy thoughts out of her head.
I watch a lot of TV.
I'm thinking about doing a porn with Brad (aka www.AlexDark.com) over break. Jake would kill me. But I think it'd be fun.
I'm too chicken shit baby, don't worry.
Or am I?
I'm going to blatently cheat on my exam tomorrow. And I have no other way to take that test. I am SUCH a bad person.
Jake's ignoring me. I think we're on rough waters. I'm probably paranoid. But the last time a boy got sick for a few days and ignored me, we broke up. Bad. Ew. Doug. What the fuck was I thikning.
We were actually conceptualizing a double-date with me and Jake and him and Brad porn-star guy. (Not MY porn-star friend named Brad tho. Funny how I've met two pornstars this semester both named Brad) The last guy I knew named Brad was Brad Enlow from grade school. Wonder how he's doing. I think about that a lot.
What about the people you knew when you were SO young like that. I bet they could tell you stories about yourself that you would NEVER believe. & vice versa.
I should have been an artist.
"There's no greater power than the power of goodbye." WHat a gay line.
I can't wait to go home and see people. It's gonna be awesome! I'm gonna get so drunk and high it'll be rediculous!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But seriously kids, Daddy's becoming an alcoholic and this year you're not getting any Christmas presents. Sorry Jimmy. Stop playing with the empty bottles and your life-support tube and GO TO BED!