Changes in my personality

[niceangel]

"What happened to that happy go lucky girl?" This is what my friend said to me in the past. I can feel myself changing as time goes on. I used to be happier and had more patience. As people go through challenges, people change. In the past, for some reason every one would always say that I was very mature for my age. However, as I get older, why is it harder for me to be "mature." I used to blame it on a certain person, but I feel that there are other reasons too. I feel the more complicated things become, the harder it is to "hold things together." Also, the happier the person, the easier it is to be less emotional and think clearly. If everything was smooth, it's much easier to keep myself in check. However, if you constantly have someone hanging up on you for no apparent reason, not picking up their phone, not understanding your concerns or acting out then it tests your patience. I think it is especially difficult to be "mature," when you constantly have to work with somebody that is not reasonable. But is it possible for a "mature" person to go through a lot of trauma and change into an "immature" person? I think so. From a range of mildly mature to extremely mature, I'd probably range in the mildly moderate mature level and now I am at mildly mature. If I think it's hard to keep it together at this point, then I can't imagine what Obama or any president goes through. You have to deal with multiple people and the media, which can mislead people upon your intentions. I have a new found respect for presidents.

P.S. I do know that it's not fair to blame everything on other people. I knew what I was getting into before starting the relationship, so I don't blame anyone.People are just born "different."