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Cooking dinner for the family. sausages in tomatos and onions w/ cilantro cooked into rice. my dad seems to think it looks like gumbo... but since i've never had gumbo i wouldn't know. We got home today from getting some stuff at the store and he was pissed. we didn't leave a note or call though so it's understandable after what just happened. if you've ever seen my dad angry (which most of you haven't) he was 2 timew angrier..with 2x's as much spit comming out of his mouth...
i was thinking about my mother today, since it's close to mothers day. i'm not sure if she wasn't happy with us or what. i know she wasn't happy with my father, but what did we do? It's not just that she left. she'f different with her new family. i was looking though my diary and i found entries where i said things about how i didn't think she loved us, and how come we weren't good enough and things like that. i guess i don't think that now. i'm not sure what to think about it. i feel like she did a good job raising us and all, but i don't feel like she was done. i mean you years as a kid are important, but i feel like your years as a teen are even more important. i don't know...
God i love wine! Especially when i'm cooking. it tastes so good...
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i wrote that last night and i guess i thought i posted it but didn't...
o well