Wow I am back?!?!?!?

[nice20boi]

Yea it's been for fucking ever since I updated this, in fact I figured it was gone, so the fact it is still here is almost amazing to me. Unfortunately I messed up many of the photobucket links but oh well u didn't give a shit about my pics n e wayz. So where are we at this moment, I am dating Frank. . .things are super shitty, he makes me feel like shit on a regular basis, competely unloved and undesired.I tried killing myself way back ni December, ended up in the hospital in the ICU. I have had knee surgery and my tonsels removed since I last updated, along with an emergency surgery when i had complications with my tonsels and i was bleeding out.

Long story short my last 6 months or so have been the most difficult and miserble months of my entire life so far. Bad relationships from people who have used me and hurt me and dumped me. To be coupled with the fact that many of my friends have been shitty friends and for the most part society in whole has gotten me super pissed off.

Sound bitter? I am. If you think that changes me and who I am your wrong, I continue on caring about others more than I do myself and worrying about how I am viewed by the people around me. I allow the fact that many dislike me to severely depress me and thank god for anti depressents and sleep aides.

We shall see perhaps I shall update this occasionally again.