Why is it always me?
Well I just got back from Dave's house, Kole and Dave are probabbly fucking by now, but atleast I am here so I don't know. But I am soo mad, I swear why is it that I can't get over relationships, me and Kole dated for all of 5 days before he broke up with me, and that was a year ago. But I can't help but have feeling towards him still. I think it has to do with the fact that he kissed me all of once and I seem to get to see him make out with everybody and their brother. Not to mention fuck everyone when we ever did. Obviously he never like me and I just can't quite move on. I care so much about Dave so when he wanted to mess around/ fuck Kole I was like ok, but I don't need to be seeing that shit. So when we were hanging out and it started moving towards that I wanted to leave. They stole my car keys and wouldn't let me leave, so I got to see them continue that shit, I finally got out of there by paying kole like $40 to let me leave. Why does this shit happen to me, why is it me who has to sit here alone crying over this fucking bullshit. Why is it that I couldn't get hit on the way home and put this world behind me. All this wouldn't have happened if fuckin Jesse had called me today to hang out, but nope that didn't happen. So yea, I think I am gonna drink some more, with some luck get alchohol poisening and die. Goodnight!