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WERE GOING TO STATES!
K. SO MARCHED IN THE PARADE LAST NIGHT WITH SOME OF MY ALL TIME FAV PEOPLE EVER.
YA SO MR PERRINE SAID ALL I HAD TO DO WAS SMILE AND LOOK BEAUTIFUL AND JAMES MCCAW SAID SHE NEVER HAS TROUBLE DOING THAT. I GOT ALL BLUSHED AND I WAS LIKE ALL BLUSHED UP. I WONDER IF HE WAS BEING REAL OR JUST BEING NICE. AND OMG WHEN ALEX (M*DRUMLINE*) TOOK OFF HIS SANTA HIS HAIR WAS STICKING UP LIKE A TROLL AND ME AND SARA TOLD HIM SO... AND HE SAID " III LOOK LIKE A TROLL?" SO YA DO I REALLY LOOK LIKE A TROLL WAS ON MY MIND ALL NIGHT....SO BEFORE WE LEFT SCHOOL AFTER GETTING OUT OF OUR MARCHING UNIFORMS IM LIKE ALEX DO I REALLY LOOK LIKE A TROLL AND HE SAID NO . SO YA I THINK HE WAS JUST TRYING TO GET ME TO SHUT THE HELL UP YA KNOW. DO I REALLY LOOK LIKE A TROLL? DO YOU THINK HE WAS SERIOUS? IF YOUR ACTUALLY CARING ENOUGH TO READ THIS I DONT EXPECT ANSWERS I JUST WANT TO SEND THESE ?'S OUT INTO THE VOID AIR AND MAYBE ANGELS WILL WHISPER IN MY EAR SOMEDAY THE ANSWERS. SO YA SORRY I DONT WRITE IN THIS VERY OFTEN BUT MYSPACE IS AWESOME. BUT ITS ALWAYS GOOD TO GET THE FEELINGS OFF YOUR MIND AND WRITE THEM DOWN SOMEWHERE. IM HAPPY. REALLY I AM. BUT YA KNOW HOW SOMETIMES YOU JUST WANT...NOT MORE BUT SOMETHING DIFFERENT. AND THERE ALWAYS THOSE THINGS YOUR GOING TO YEARN AND BE LIKE WHAT IF I SAID YES TO THIS PERSON THEN..WOULD I BE THE SAME PERSON? WOULD IT HAVE LASTED? HOW DO I KNOW THE PERSON IM WITH IS THE RIGHT PERSON? WHAT IF THE PERSON I WAS MEANT TO BE WITH ALREADY MET ME AND ASKED ME OUT AND I SAID NO? WHAT IF HE WAS THE PERSON I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE WITH??? OR HAVE I NOT MET HIM YET? HOW DO I KNOW IF THEIR THE RIGHT PERSON? NOW IF YOUR READING THIS YOUR GUNNA TELL ME YOU JUST KNOW RIGHT...WELL WRONG. YOU DONT KNOW ME VERY WELL DO YOU? I COULD BE COMPATIABLE WITH ANYBODY. IM IN LOVE WITH BEING IN LOVE. IM THE BIGGEST ROMANTIC EVER. IM A DISNEY FANATIC WHAT DO YOU EXPECT? A TOTAL STRANGER AND ME COULD MEET TALK ALL NIGHT AND THEN LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER... BUT WHEN EVER I GET TO CLOSE TO SOMEONE IM ALWAYS QUESTIONING WHAT IF????????? BECAUSE WHAT IF YA KNOW? WHAT IF I WAS MEANT FOR SOMETHING DIFFERENT? WHATS IN PLAN FOR MY LIFE IF I DO THIS? IM ALSO LIKE THIS IN SCHOOL.. AND EVERYTHING IN THAT MATTER. WHAT IF WHAT IF WHAT IF. IVE TRIED EVERYTHING TO GET THESE EVERLASTING ?'S OUT OF MY MIND. BUT I ALWAYS WANT TO SWITCH IT UP BECAUSE IM ALWAYS AFIRAD IM GOING TO GET STUCK IN SOMETHING THAT I WONT BE ABLE TO BE HAPPY IN DOWN THE ROAD OR SOMETHING ILL FORGET. LIFES TOO SHORT FOR REGRETS AND I DONT LIVE FOR REGRETS AND I WANT TOT MAKE SURE I MAKE THE RIGHT CHOICES??? HOW DO I KNOW THAT THIS IS GOING TO BE THE RIGHT CHOICE TWO WEEKS FROM NOW LET ALONE THE REST OF MY LIFE??AGAIN NONE OF THESE ?'S ARE NEEDING DEFINITE ANSWERS BUT THESE ARE THE LITTLE THINGS THAT KEEP ME UP ALL NIGHT. AND THESE WHAT IFS ARE THE ?['S THAT KEEP ME FROM COMMITING MYSELF FULLY TO ANYONE. OR ANYTHING. I HATE WHAT IFS. I DONT KNOW WHAT IM GOING TO DO. MAYBE I SHOULD JUST DATE. AND THEN ILL GET EVERYTHING AND ILL END UP CHOOSING THE RIGHT PERSON LATER IN LIFE WHEN MY WHAT IFS BECOME MORE SUTTLE IN MY MIND. NO THATS NOT RIGHT. NOT RIGHT TO THE GUYS .OR MY HEART. BUT WHAT IF??????????????????????????
K. SO MARCHED IN THE PARADE LAST NIGHT WITH SOME OF MY ALL TIME FAV PEOPLE EVER.
YA SO MR PERRINE SAID ALL I HAD TO DO WAS SMILE AND LOOK BEAUTIFUL AND JAMES MCCAW SAID SHE NEVER HAS TROUBLE DOING THAT. I GOT ALL BLUSHED AND I WAS LIKE ALL BLUSHED UP. I WONDER IF HE WAS BEING REAL OR JUST BEING NICE. AND OMG WHEN ALEX (M*DRUMLINE*) TOOK OFF HIS SANTA HIS HAIR WAS STICKING UP LIKE A TROLL AND ME AND SARA TOLD HIM SO... AND HE SAID " III LOOK LIKE A TROLL?" SO YA DO I REALLY LOOK LIKE A TROLL WAS ON MY MIND ALL NIGHT....SO BEFORE WE LEFT SCHOOL AFTER GETTING OUT OF OUR MARCHING UNIFORMS IM LIKE ALEX DO I REALLY LOOK LIKE A TROLL AND HE SAID NO . SO YA I THINK HE WAS JUST TRYING TO GET ME TO SHUT THE HELL UP YA KNOW. DO I REALLY LOOK LIKE A TROLL? DO YOU THINK HE WAS SERIOUS? IF YOUR ACTUALLY CARING ENOUGH TO READ THIS I DONT EXPECT ANSWERS I JUST WANT TO SEND THESE ?'S OUT INTO THE VOID AIR AND MAYBE ANGELS WILL WHISPER IN MY EAR SOMEDAY THE ANSWERS. SO YA SORRY I DONT WRITE IN THIS VERY OFTEN BUT MYSPACE IS AWESOME. BUT ITS ALWAYS GOOD TO GET THE FEELINGS OFF YOUR MIND AND WRITE THEM DOWN SOMEWHERE. IM HAPPY. REALLY I AM. BUT YA KNOW HOW SOMETIMES YOU JUST WANT...NOT MORE BUT SOMETHING DIFFERENT. AND THERE ALWAYS THOSE THINGS YOUR GOING TO YEARN AND BE LIKE WHAT IF I SAID YES TO THIS PERSON THEN..WOULD I BE THE SAME PERSON? WOULD IT HAVE LASTED? HOW DO I KNOW THE PERSON IM WITH IS THE RIGHT PERSON? WHAT IF THE PERSON I WAS MEANT TO BE WITH ALREADY MET ME AND ASKED ME OUT AND I SAID NO? WHAT IF HE WAS THE PERSON I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE WITH??? OR HAVE I NOT MET HIM YET? HOW DO I KNOW IF THEIR THE RIGHT PERSON? NOW IF YOUR READING THIS YOUR GUNNA TELL ME YOU JUST KNOW RIGHT...WELL WRONG. YOU DONT KNOW ME VERY WELL DO YOU? I COULD BE COMPATIABLE WITH ANYBODY. IM IN LOVE WITH BEING IN LOVE. IM THE BIGGEST ROMANTIC EVER. IM A DISNEY FANATIC WHAT DO YOU EXPECT? A TOTAL STRANGER AND ME COULD MEET TALK ALL NIGHT AND THEN LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER... BUT WHEN EVER I GET TO CLOSE TO SOMEONE IM ALWAYS QUESTIONING WHAT IF????????? BECAUSE WHAT IF YA KNOW? WHAT IF I WAS MEANT FOR SOMETHING DIFFERENT? WHATS IN PLAN FOR MY LIFE IF I DO THIS? IM ALSO LIKE THIS IN SCHOOL.. AND EVERYTHING IN THAT MATTER. WHAT IF WHAT IF WHAT IF. IVE TRIED EVERYTHING TO GET THESE EVERLASTING ?'S OUT OF MY MIND. BUT I ALWAYS WANT TO SWITCH IT UP BECAUSE IM ALWAYS AFIRAD IM GOING TO GET STUCK IN SOMETHING THAT I WONT BE ABLE TO BE HAPPY IN DOWN THE ROAD OR SOMETHING ILL FORGET. LIFES TOO SHORT FOR REGRETS AND I DONT LIVE FOR REGRETS AND I WANT TOT MAKE SURE I MAKE THE RIGHT CHOICES??? HOW DO I KNOW THAT THIS IS GOING TO BE THE RIGHT CHOICE TWO WEEKS FROM NOW LET ALONE THE REST OF MY LIFE??AGAIN NONE OF THESE ?'S ARE NEEDING DEFINITE ANSWERS BUT THESE ARE THE LITTLE THINGS THAT KEEP ME UP ALL NIGHT. AND THESE WHAT IFS ARE THE ?['S THAT KEEP ME FROM COMMITING MYSELF FULLY TO ANYONE. OR ANYTHING. I HATE WHAT IFS. I DONT KNOW WHAT IM GOING TO DO. MAYBE I SHOULD JUST DATE. AND THEN ILL GET EVERYTHING AND ILL END UP CHOOSING THE RIGHT PERSON LATER IN LIFE WHEN MY WHAT IFS BECOME MORE SUTTLE IN MY MIND. NO THATS NOT RIGHT. NOT RIGHT TO THE GUYS .OR MY HEART. BUT WHAT IF??????????????????????????