I am sorry

[nicbackrox]

Ok perhaps the oveload of emoness has actually made my college life worse. For one second I am going to be practical. Yes I love paul and of course i miss him overwhelmingly. It hurts and everyday i wish i was with him but there is nothig ni can do about it. I need to just trust it now. I cant force it to work it just has to and i believe it can. I love you Paul and i know we can make it threw. Yes i am lonely but it will pass. Eventually something will preoccupy me. I just have to not allow myself to dig deeper into a hole in which i will never stop being depressed.

I love you Paul and it will work out. We just both need to be hopeful and let it work itself out. Trust, something i have the hardest time with.

~DOnt open your eyes you wont like what you see~