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[nicbackrox]

OK so here i am in college and its really not all i expected it to be. I am so homesick its incredible and i miss paul so much it hurts. I am sure once i get used to everything i shall be ok. Once classes start it should go by fast. I just cant stan this empty feeling inside of me. Like I am missing something, well i know its paul and my family and friends. Mostly Paul. I want you to know i love you more than you'll ever know and going away has made me realize this. I dont ever want you to find someone else or leave me. I just really hope that being without me has mad eyou too realize how important this is not the oposite, like where you decide you dont love me as much as you thought.

Ah i cant help but be mushy. I just feel so out of place and ah its icky. Helpful phone calls or IMs might be useful during this time. I miss all my old friends, I am sorry i had not a chance to say good bye. So i guess I am saying it now.

~ I've got some friends, som etat i hardly know~