I wanna hold you baby, 'cause I'm gonna miss you like crazy even if I'm halfway around the world
Boo me for not keeping up again. Here goes.
Friday: Well, there are only two significant things I can remember about Friday. First was that we had the talent show, which went beautifully. I think that we (being me and Christy) did well, and I don't mean to be mean or anything, but I was definitely better than Christy. And now I feel horrible for saying that, but then again I don't, 'cause it's true. And we didn't really like her anyway. And then there was one other thing that happened:
I told him.
That's right folks, I told Joris how I feel. (Happy now, Tyler?) It went a little like this: I wrote him a letter, because I always feel like things are easier that way. And then I had Semira give it to him for me. Basically it told him I liked him, and that I would miss him, blah blah blah, and then at the end it said, PS if you want to talk I'll be at the Pointe, ask Semira where that is, she'll tell you. So I'm sitting up at the Pointe for some time waiting, and then Semira comes up and tells me he didn't think he was coming, that he had to think about stuff still. So I was a little bummed out. Ok, I was more than a little bummed out, and I spent the whole night worried that I'd totally messed things up and saying goodbye would be really awkward and weird the next morning.
Saturday: Well it came time for saying goodbyes to many people, including Joris. And unlike what I thought, he was the perfect gentleman, very sweet. He smiled at me as I came over, and it wasn't an awkward smile, it was... well, it was like the smiles he'd been giving me all summer, but there was something... else there, in his smile, in his eyes that I can't really describe. But he held me extra long when we said bye, and told me to take care. Then Rachel and Maha were leaving too, so I started crying, and then I had to go upstairs to get my helmet to return my bike, and he was up there saying bye to the other girls, and he saw me crying and said, Don't cry Jovanie, and he hugged me hard again, and said, I'll miss you.
See the thing is, I didn't realize just how much I really like him until the night before. I was talking to Nicole, and had shown her the letter, and we were talking about Dean and Joris, and our hopeless romantic-ness, and after a minute, she turns to me very serious and says, You really like him don't you? And I said, Yeah I really do. Up till that point, it had almost been like one of those crushes you have on movie stars, on unreachalbe people, where you fantasize and joke about all that stuff that I had been. But that was when I really realized how much I really did like him, how deeply I was really going to miss him, and how not knowing if I'll ever see him again really hurt.
I'm crying again now as I write this. I miss everyone so much, and Adelfa, and Stanford in general. But I have to go now, orthodontist's appointment. But I'll finish this when I get back.
Friday: Well, there are only two significant things I can remember about Friday. First was that we had the talent show, which went beautifully. I think that we (being me and Christy) did well, and I don't mean to be mean or anything, but I was definitely better than Christy. And now I feel horrible for saying that, but then again I don't, 'cause it's true. And we didn't really like her anyway. And then there was one other thing that happened:
I told him.
That's right folks, I told Joris how I feel. (Happy now, Tyler?) It went a little like this: I wrote him a letter, because I always feel like things are easier that way. And then I had Semira give it to him for me. Basically it told him I liked him, and that I would miss him, blah blah blah, and then at the end it said, PS if you want to talk I'll be at the Pointe, ask Semira where that is, she'll tell you. So I'm sitting up at the Pointe for some time waiting, and then Semira comes up and tells me he didn't think he was coming, that he had to think about stuff still. So I was a little bummed out. Ok, I was more than a little bummed out, and I spent the whole night worried that I'd totally messed things up and saying goodbye would be really awkward and weird the next morning.
Saturday: Well it came time for saying goodbyes to many people, including Joris. And unlike what I thought, he was the perfect gentleman, very sweet. He smiled at me as I came over, and it wasn't an awkward smile, it was... well, it was like the smiles he'd been giving me all summer, but there was something... else there, in his smile, in his eyes that I can't really describe. But he held me extra long when we said bye, and told me to take care. Then Rachel and Maha were leaving too, so I started crying, and then I had to go upstairs to get my helmet to return my bike, and he was up there saying bye to the other girls, and he saw me crying and said, Don't cry Jovanie, and he hugged me hard again, and said, I'll miss you.
See the thing is, I didn't realize just how much I really like him until the night before. I was talking to Nicole, and had shown her the letter, and we were talking about Dean and Joris, and our hopeless romantic-ness, and after a minute, she turns to me very serious and says, You really like him don't you? And I said, Yeah I really do. Up till that point, it had almost been like one of those crushes you have on movie stars, on unreachalbe people, where you fantasize and joke about all that stuff that I had been. But that was when I really realized how much I really did like him, how deeply I was really going to miss him, and how not knowing if I'll ever see him again really hurt.
I'm crying again now as I write this. I miss everyone so much, and Adelfa, and Stanford in general. But I have to go now, orthodontist's appointment. But I'll finish this when I get back.