Had to let it out..
I dont know where to start. I am training to become a laminator, working in fiberglass. That job will set me for life, and then maybe I can be happy. I dont know though. I am really trying hard to press on, but everyfay, it seems as though life gets harder. I just want the chance to have my own family and support them. I think that, that chance was thrown out the window, when her and I broke up. All I ever do is think about her...is there any other way to move on? Im confused, I dont know wheether or not to stay and fight, or run and let go. I dont want to run, because just seeing her face makes me smile...There is so much inside, that I wish I could let out, but I dont have anyone to talk to about it. It seems as though people dont understand, that I was truly in love. Im empty without her, and I feel the emptiness ever god damned day of my life, that I have had to live without her. I miss Maisy, and "Gooey". I guess I just miss my old life, I hope that someday soon, she will realixe that I do love her, and maybe she'll come back to me..Well I gotta go, I hate thinking back, but she was on my mind, and I had to get it out. MMFCL