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My life is really bad right now. My grandma is about to die, every time I visit her she gets worse and I dont know which visit will be my last. It really sucks and i go back and forth between being serene about it and panicky. I love my grandma.
In other news, I like my new apartment, its a mess and i have no internet or cable but thats ok i kind of like being away from the web and tv. i am changing rapidly and i cant even keep up w who i am or whats going on.
ive also been doing some drugs, not a lot, some oc here and there and ecstasy (see above picture lol) and xanax. idk. i feel imcomplete. i have a hard time thinking about the future and where ill be in one year. i havent been to work except maybe 3 times this month and ive made well over enough for rent. i cant handle being there. im too sad over my grandma.
peace out.