just shut up already
so?
so?
i am allowed to use this to rant. i don't spend my time here reflecting on all the happygoodness. so? so?
that is not a problem.
god. i feel shit.
stupid cold. i hate colds. they are so vile. they are such a limp form of being sick.
why the Fuck can't i just let it go? what the fuck is my stupid, pathetic problem? i want nothing. nothing. i don't want to loathe her, i don't to feel like spitting in her self-satisfied smirk. i don't want to wish her suffering, pain misery.
i just want to forget she exists. i want her gone. i want to never, ever think about her. or him again, for as long as i live. i want both of them empty nothings. voids. holes. i want them gone.
this is not moving on. i want to stop hating her pathetic petty self.
because.
i am Not a cheater. i am not some petty scumbag. i resent it.
so?
i am allowed to use this to rant. i don't spend my time here reflecting on all the happygoodness. so? so?
that is not a problem.
god. i feel shit.
stupid cold. i hate colds. they are so vile. they are such a limp form of being sick.
why the Fuck can't i just let it go? what the fuck is my stupid, pathetic problem? i want nothing. nothing. i don't want to loathe her, i don't to feel like spitting in her self-satisfied smirk. i don't want to wish her suffering, pain misery.
i just want to forget she exists. i want her gone. i want to never, ever think about her. or him again, for as long as i live. i want both of them empty nothings. voids. holes. i want them gone.
this is not moving on. i want to stop hating her pathetic petty self.
because.
i am Not a cheater. i am not some petty scumbag. i resent it.