sleepy. littlebit melancholy
nap nap. i think the nap = little melancholy.
i am draining mr battery out of fishyfishy, and draining kind-neighbours wireless. go me! and i am doing uni work so i am feeling a little better about myself. thats the one think i loath about study - the constant feeling that it's the Only Thing i Should Ever be Doing, and if i am not, i am Bad Person.
i keep playing with my nose ring.
on the upside, today has lent itself to the discovery of a site that will help me understand gender trouble; it's nice and clear. and lots of nice, clear intellectually accurate and bibliographable information on queer theory, written so nice and clearly it could almost make me weep.
shouldnt i be writing about my feelings? isnt that what diaries are for? god, i havent had one for so long; it shows in my writing. i feel a little self-concious though, because Real people i know, and actually see lots of, and love dearly read this; just getting use to the whole "real" diary writing with that knowledge. that., and the fact that the happy pills have left me pretty emotionally stable anyway. but, i am getting worried about the sleepyness. i have had a nap today, and i think i will probably be up for another one soon. constantly sleepy. but, i think a naturopath will fix that, will be a little better at negociating all my fun IBS and hypoglycemia stuff. i feel like such a whiner saying / i have ibs, i have hypoglycemia, my ankles are deformed, i am on antidepressants, i am on the pill for my acne and for my near suicidally bad pms and irregular periods that are so painful i can't move...../ blerg. sob sob me.
i have discovered the cure to my spending. Online WIndow shopping. no need to buy, but i can just spend hours browsing skincare and ebay clothes, makeup i actually dont wear more than once a week, and hair products i flatly hate to use. happyshoplooking!!!!
i am draining mr battery out of fishyfishy, and draining kind-neighbours wireless. go me! and i am doing uni work so i am feeling a little better about myself. thats the one think i loath about study - the constant feeling that it's the Only Thing i Should Ever be Doing, and if i am not, i am Bad Person.
i keep playing with my nose ring.
on the upside, today has lent itself to the discovery of a site that will help me understand gender trouble; it's nice and clear. and lots of nice, clear intellectually accurate and bibliographable information on queer theory, written so nice and clearly it could almost make me weep.
shouldnt i be writing about my feelings? isnt that what diaries are for? god, i havent had one for so long; it shows in my writing. i feel a little self-concious though, because Real people i know, and actually see lots of, and love dearly read this; just getting use to the whole "real" diary writing with that knowledge. that., and the fact that the happy pills have left me pretty emotionally stable anyway. but, i am getting worried about the sleepyness. i have had a nap today, and i think i will probably be up for another one soon. constantly sleepy. but, i think a naturopath will fix that, will be a little better at negociating all my fun IBS and hypoglycemia stuff. i feel like such a whiner saying / i have ibs, i have hypoglycemia, my ankles are deformed, i am on antidepressants, i am on the pill for my acne and for my near suicidally bad pms and irregular periods that are so painful i can't move...../ blerg. sob sob me.
i have discovered the cure to my spending. Online WIndow shopping. no need to buy, but i can just spend hours browsing skincare and ebay clothes, makeup i actually dont wear more than once a week, and hair products i flatly hate to use. happyshoplooking!!!!