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2007.. What a year. Dissappointments. Broken promises. Friends, no friends, losing friends, gaining some.
It started with me "In school" And that meaning meaning the whole month of January me not showing up for school once. In February I got a little kick when i got a letter from the school saying i was going to be withdrawn, and all I had ever wanted the past 4 years was to walk across that stage and get that diploma. The next day, i got a phone call from my dad saying, he had ordered his plane tickets for my graduation, because he lives in Massachusetts. He said I better graduate, because if I didnt he was still going down here, but he wasnt coming back alone. The next day I got up around 5 and called Charles, he picked me up for the first time in more than a month. The rest of the school year consisted of waking extra moment of my free time in Compass Lab,leaving then going to work till 12:30,Eventually Making up 7 classes. A school record for one semester of make ups. Makes you proud doesn't it?
Untill April, When one day Mic picked me up for work only to tell me, I was to be fired when i got there. It ended up I did.
In May, I graduated. Barely, but it was probably the happiest day of my life. June i left for Massachusetts, working every waking moment, to buy this Lappy im talking to you on right now.
August, I returned for College, which for once in my life i was So, determined to make happen. It all went well for a month, Charles picking me up every morning. Then, My mom moved us to Palm Coast, And i had to drop out. I had no reliable Transportation, anywhere.
September, the month i had waited for for 3 years, Halo 3 was released, and for a few weeks, i had a vent from everything else. Just me and Charles playing Halo every waking moment. Then.
October, I had met a girl whom im still with. For a week we stayed at Lee's and for a while, I felt at home. Lee has always been a really good friend. Then one night i had to go home. I had no clothes at his house and I needed to get them. I Stayed up late that night just trolling the internet, when i got an IM from Lee.Lee:"Dude, I just got shot." Me: "Wait, what? Are you okay?"
Lee:"Yeah, Ill talk to you after i wash the blood off." /signs off...I waited till 8am where i finally passed out. I woke up around noon, and Called Lee, he told me the story. I told my mom and she was like, "Wait,weren't you supposed to be with them last night?" I went to my room, sat against the wall, and contemplated what had happened. Apparently the bullet had gone through the back passenger window over Lee's shoulder and out the windshield. For a moment i thought about when Me,Lee,and Charles are in the truck, I always sit behind Lee, in the passenger seat with my head on the shoulder rest talking to them. I could have been dead. As well as them. To this day I cant sit behind Lee in the Car, or go through a drive-thru in that seat. That night we met at Cyber Jungle, it seemed so surreal, then he mentioned Final destination, and i know that can't happen but my heart dropped. The size of the whole event finally hit me in the face like a Cinder Block dropped off of a Skyscraper.I think we grew closer as friends, and further apart from civilization. Spending weeks in Crystal Beach and Orange City.
Another meaningless Birthday also came that month.
November, Thanksgiving came which i Spent at Alexia's.
December, rolled in with the thought off still being jobless, and not being able my friends, let alone my family anything. I spent it In Ormond, We had a nice Christmas eve dinner at Lee's house. Christmas has never seemed the same since we left. Sure people put up the lights, but theres nothing like that snow. The past Christmas ive tried spending with my friends, who i cherish always.
When he tried to push me away from my home in Ormond, because I had met a girl, whom I love. You have no idea how bad i felt.
Last week I went to my mom talked, about the future, the present, and my home. My mom told me to do what i felt was right, and that i seemed happy with who i was with. I told her i felt i was going no where. She told me no one knows where they're going. I still am not sure what to do.
The past two weeks ive spent at Jamaal's visiting my friends every chance i got. It was like the good old days.
I feel horrible for not staying with my friends. But i visit them as much as possible, i don't ever want to lose them. The end of this school year ill be losing a few, to the military. And I wish them luck. And wish i could go too. I don't have enough guts to do it.
I guess im done.
Damn, Screw you 2007. Bring back '03.
It started with me "In school" And that meaning meaning the whole month of January me not showing up for school once. In February I got a little kick when i got a letter from the school saying i was going to be withdrawn, and all I had ever wanted the past 4 years was to walk across that stage and get that diploma. The next day, i got a phone call from my dad saying, he had ordered his plane tickets for my graduation, because he lives in Massachusetts. He said I better graduate, because if I didnt he was still going down here, but he wasnt coming back alone. The next day I got up around 5 and called Charles, he picked me up for the first time in more than a month. The rest of the school year consisted of waking extra moment of my free time in Compass Lab,leaving then going to work till 12:30,Eventually Making up 7 classes. A school record for one semester of make ups. Makes you proud doesn't it?
Untill April, When one day Mic picked me up for work only to tell me, I was to be fired when i got there. It ended up I did.
In May, I graduated. Barely, but it was probably the happiest day of my life. June i left for Massachusetts, working every waking moment, to buy this Lappy im talking to you on right now.
August, I returned for College, which for once in my life i was So, determined to make happen. It all went well for a month, Charles picking me up every morning. Then, My mom moved us to Palm Coast, And i had to drop out. I had no reliable Transportation, anywhere.
September, the month i had waited for for 3 years, Halo 3 was released, and for a few weeks, i had a vent from everything else. Just me and Charles playing Halo every waking moment. Then.
October, I had met a girl whom im still with. For a week we stayed at Lee's and for a while, I felt at home. Lee has always been a really good friend. Then one night i had to go home. I had no clothes at his house and I needed to get them. I Stayed up late that night just trolling the internet, when i got an IM from Lee.Lee:"Dude, I just got shot." Me: "Wait, what? Are you okay?"
Lee:"Yeah, Ill talk to you after i wash the blood off." /signs off...I waited till 8am where i finally passed out. I woke up around noon, and Called Lee, he told me the story. I told my mom and she was like, "Wait,weren't you supposed to be with them last night?" I went to my room, sat against the wall, and contemplated what had happened. Apparently the bullet had gone through the back passenger window over Lee's shoulder and out the windshield. For a moment i thought about when Me,Lee,and Charles are in the truck, I always sit behind Lee, in the passenger seat with my head on the shoulder rest talking to them. I could have been dead. As well as them. To this day I cant sit behind Lee in the Car, or go through a drive-thru in that seat. That night we met at Cyber Jungle, it seemed so surreal, then he mentioned Final destination, and i know that can't happen but my heart dropped. The size of the whole event finally hit me in the face like a Cinder Block dropped off of a Skyscraper.I think we grew closer as friends, and further apart from civilization. Spending weeks in Crystal Beach and Orange City.
Another meaningless Birthday also came that month.
November, Thanksgiving came which i Spent at Alexia's.
December, rolled in with the thought off still being jobless, and not being able my friends, let alone my family anything. I spent it In Ormond, We had a nice Christmas eve dinner at Lee's house. Christmas has never seemed the same since we left. Sure people put up the lights, but theres nothing like that snow. The past Christmas ive tried spending with my friends, who i cherish always.
When he tried to push me away from my home in Ormond, because I had met a girl, whom I love. You have no idea how bad i felt.
Last week I went to my mom talked, about the future, the present, and my home. My mom told me to do what i felt was right, and that i seemed happy with who i was with. I told her i felt i was going no where. She told me no one knows where they're going. I still am not sure what to do.
The past two weeks ive spent at Jamaal's visiting my friends every chance i got. It was like the good old days.
I feel horrible for not staying with my friends. But i visit them as much as possible, i don't ever want to lose them. The end of this school year ill be losing a few, to the military. And I wish them luck. And wish i could go too. I don't have enough guts to do it.
I guess im done.
Damn, Screw you 2007. Bring back '03.