Tell me you want the kind of thing that money just can't buy.
Today was good in many ways.
There was the church aspect, what Rachel was sharing about, love, made me think. Right now, in this moment, it feels so right to just do what feels good. I don't really want to listen YET, maybe i crave experience? But indulging is so fun. I should'nt, I know.
Service in Coos was really really good. It made me feel a something I haven't felt since forever.
Then there was the 'gig' part of today. (I prefer 'event', it sounds less pretentious, serious.)
Freeway was awesome, but I was so sloppy, clumsy. The rest were tight, they were good! But oh gosh some parts of the songs I was like omg-cringe at me. And Kurt sounded so off too. (HOW? He is legend!)
I just want to be able to play Stand By Me perfectly in front of an audience.
I can do it at home, but just now my knees were wobbly. Serious. And I think my stomach was turning. (Maybe that's why I wasn't hungry.) But- I was fine in front of THE WHOLE SCHOOL before!
I'm quite sad it's over though. Now I have nothing to anticipate. It went better than I expected, even if I had to leave early-er. Now I don't have a reason or a real excuse to myself to just waste time by playing guitar. It's Sec 4 year, must study ah! D: I don't want to, I'm such a bum. Now the weeks ahead are just OMG TESTS TESTS TESTS.
And I'm not even going for any concerts! This year alone I have missed three. I wanted to go for Ting Tings, FOB, Mraz. BUT ALL ALSO CANNOT. D: My parents are all "No no cannot! Your results are so bad, you still want to go for a concert!". I wish I were smarter, honestly I feel stupid a lot.
I think Chuan is very right. I spend so much time, too much, on my music. But idk, it's so important. I always feel deprived after camps cause I'd miss my iPod. Oh and I want to go for Coldplay!
I don't like school anymore. I think I'm going through a phase. I want a study buddy! OH ANNA & RACHEL, I need you! :DDDDD
Oh, and there was something. Today was sweet. I don't know how to write this without it coming off as clichéd, so I'll just write a series of disjointed lines I want to let go.
- The look just melts me, I love the one we shared over all those people. When we happened to catch each other's eyes. (This just kills me, it's so cheesy.)
- You were staring at my face like you wanted to kiss me. And I wish you did.
- I just realized, how it it with C is pretty much like how it was with A, except-.
- Does anyone beside me have explicit dreams??
My sister is win! She can sleep through vol 23 music and me singing at the top of my voice!
(That reminds me, did I sing terribly? Maybe no one heard me though, well I certainly couldn't hear myself.)
"We should totally go cj cause all the hotness are there!"
HAHAHAHAHAHA. Guess who said that.
987 is so much cooler after hours! They were playing Jaded and Enter Sandman!
There's something relaxing about listening to the intro to Enter Sandman at 2 in the morning.
Ha, I dare anyone to comment. :D
There was the church aspect, what Rachel was sharing about, love, made me think. Right now, in this moment, it feels so right to just do what feels good. I don't really want to listen YET, maybe i crave experience? But indulging is so fun. I should'nt, I know.
Service in Coos was really really good. It made me feel a something I haven't felt since forever.
Then there was the 'gig' part of today. (I prefer 'event', it sounds less pretentious, serious.)
Freeway was awesome, but I was so sloppy, clumsy. The rest were tight, they were good! But oh gosh some parts of the songs I was like omg-cringe at me. And Kurt sounded so off too. (HOW? He is legend!)
I just want to be able to play Stand By Me perfectly in front of an audience.
I can do it at home, but just now my knees were wobbly. Serious. And I think my stomach was turning. (Maybe that's why I wasn't hungry.) But- I was fine in front of THE WHOLE SCHOOL before!
I'm quite sad it's over though. Now I have nothing to anticipate. It went better than I expected, even if I had to leave early-er. Now I don't have a reason or a real excuse to myself to just waste time by playing guitar. It's Sec 4 year, must study ah! D: I don't want to, I'm such a bum. Now the weeks ahead are just OMG TESTS TESTS TESTS.
And I'm not even going for any concerts! This year alone I have missed three. I wanted to go for Ting Tings, FOB, Mraz. BUT ALL ALSO CANNOT. D: My parents are all "No no cannot! Your results are so bad, you still want to go for a concert!". I wish I were smarter, honestly I feel stupid a lot.
I think Chuan is very right. I spend so much time, too much, on my music. But idk, it's so important. I always feel deprived after camps cause I'd miss my iPod. Oh and I want to go for Coldplay!
I don't like school anymore. I think I'm going through a phase. I want a study buddy! OH ANNA & RACHEL, I need you! :DDDDD
Oh, and there was something. Today was sweet. I don't know how to write this without it coming off as clichéd, so I'll just write a series of disjointed lines I want to let go.
- The look just melts me, I love the one we shared over all those people. When we happened to catch each other's eyes. (This just kills me, it's so cheesy.)
- You were staring at my face like you wanted to kiss me. And I wish you did.
- I just realized, how it it with C is pretty much like how it was with A, except-.
- Does anyone beside me have explicit dreams??
My sister is win! She can sleep through vol 23 music and me singing at the top of my voice!
(That reminds me, did I sing terribly? Maybe no one heard me though, well I certainly couldn't hear myself.)
"We should totally go cj cause all the hotness are there!"
HAHAHAHAHAHA. Guess who said that.
987 is so much cooler after hours! They were playing Jaded and Enter Sandman!
There's something relaxing about listening to the intro to Enter Sandman at 2 in the morning.
Ha, I dare anyone to comment. :D