Barely Functioning

[ngpoet]

spent friday to sunday in some state of drunk/hung over
barely functioning
I woke this morning to the worst dream possible
I dreamed of her
she cornered me and wanted to talk
I let it all out at her
I screamed it so everyone could hear
she made him her lying cheating adulterating mistress
how no one would ever believe in mental healthcare because of her
it was horrible
why
why do I have to have these dreams
its hard enough he left me
that he doesn't want me or need me anymore
why is everyday torture
why does my subconscious want to torture me to