So much for friendship
What really hurts is when you find out that your friend would rather not drive in a car for 10 hours rather than to see her best friend for a week. Or I thought I was her best friend anyway. But can you really call what we have a friendship considering she doesn't really talk to me and never makes an effort to come and see me? No. We don't talk. We don't share stories. I have to drive up to see her because she refuses to come down here. She hates this state more than she likes me. And that realization hit me today. She hates car rides more than she likes me. Heights? I'd understand heights. But not a fucking car ride. So, I officially give up in trying to maintain this friendship. She has her online friends anyway. She doesn't need me anymore
I also feel this way when *I* have to call my siblings because they are too busy to even give their sister a call. Do they miss me? It doesn't feel like it. My parents don't call me either. But then again, I call them enough for things that I talk to them regularly. The only person who calls me to ask about how my life is is Justin. And Kathleen. Other than that, it feels like I don't have many close friends.
I also feel this way when *I* have to call my siblings because they are too busy to even give their sister a call. Do they miss me? It doesn't feel like it. My parents don't call me either. But then again, I call them enough for things that I talk to them regularly. The only person who calls me to ask about how my life is is Justin. And Kathleen. Other than that, it feels like I don't have many close friends.