It has been a long time...
I bet everyone thought I had abandoned this livejournal... but I simply didn't have time to update...
Actually I am not really free but I guess, since I am stuffed with so much emotion right now, I can just drop by and leave some lines...
STRESS.
Project Work.
CCA.
Debate.
I swear I have not been studying at all. I am so busying doing my PW, brainstorming about my CCA research and preparing for the debate.
I am stressed. So much that I want to change CCA now.
Everything is just getting worse as I have not seen him and talked to him for so long.
And I will not be able to see him at all for the next 4 days.*oh gosh feel like fainting*
My friend said one-way love was miserable.
Yes, it is.
You miss someone to death and you are unable to do anything about it.
I miss him. A lot. So much. So intensely I just wish I was invisible so that I could sit outside his window and stare at him all night. I wish I could somehow meet him at the corridor and he would talk to me.
That would help me feel better for a while.
How do you know when you love someone? How do you know that it is not infatuation/crush?
Is it like this?
I have never experienced a feeling so intense before.
But probably it's not love. It's just infatuation with a lot of admiration.
Sometimes I wish he could just break-up with his girlfriend.
because he feels frustrated and miserable in this relationship. (it is not an excuse. it's my true feeling)
so that I can spend time talking to him without that annoying tinge of guilt.
because when he replies "I am going out with P tomorrow" it does hurt very much.
But I know I will still stand no chance in the end.
Oh please, all I want is to see him and talk to him because my heart is going to burst any moment now...
Actually I am not really free but I guess, since I am stuffed with so much emotion right now, I can just drop by and leave some lines...
STRESS.
Project Work.
CCA.
Debate.
I swear I have not been studying at all. I am so busying doing my PW, brainstorming about my CCA research and preparing for the debate.
I am stressed. So much that I want to change CCA now.
Everything is just getting worse as I have not seen him and talked to him for so long.
And I will not be able to see him at all for the next 4 days.*oh gosh feel like fainting*
My friend said one-way love was miserable.
Yes, it is.
You miss someone to death and you are unable to do anything about it.
I miss him. A lot. So much. So intensely I just wish I was invisible so that I could sit outside his window and stare at him all night. I wish I could somehow meet him at the corridor and he would talk to me.
That would help me feel better for a while.
How do you know when you love someone? How do you know that it is not infatuation/crush?
Is it like this?
I have never experienced a feeling so intense before.
But probably it's not love. It's just infatuation with a lot of admiration.
Sometimes I wish he could just break-up with his girlfriend.
because he feels frustrated and miserable in this relationship. (it is not an excuse. it's my true feeling)
so that I can spend time talking to him without that annoying tinge of guilt.
because when he replies "I am going out with P tomorrow" it does hurt very much.
But I know I will still stand no chance in the end.
Oh please, all I want is to see him and talk to him because my heart is going to burst any moment now...