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So far, things between Russ and I are going really well. He's opened up to me quite a bit about his life, his past, and what he wants in his future. Sometimes I look at him and think he is so utterly amazing. Then, there are a few times, where he just out of the blue says something that is hurtful or rude. I don't think its intentional... I think he's just moody. It hits me like a ton of bricks though, because it is so unexpected. Its so hard to leave him at night, not knowing when the hugs and kisses will be seen next, since we have different schedules. I care a lot about him, and I'm excited to see where this goes, but sometimes it feels like I'm swimming in territory that I've drowned in before. I don't want to end up 200 feet in the water screaming for a life jacket.