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i just really wish i would stop having feelings. ive been on a year long run to get away from feelings and have been able to push myself away from everyone.. except him. I think its only because i've been talking and not seeing him physically, because then i develop more in my head than's really going on. hopefully after my surgery ill be able to deal with this in a normal fashion, cause i cant possibly get into a relationship and i highly doubt he's even considering one with me but yet again its all in my head. i wish this was easier. wtf katherine.