If faith is left to prove, it's all you have to lose.
Irrelevant lyrics are irrelevant, for once. The song has just been stuck in my head all day.
My days have been uneventful. I don't know how I used to write mile-long posts every day all those years ago on my old account. Once a week now is like... I still don't feel like I ever have much to actually report.
I had a dentist appointment on Thursday. For the record, I drew the short genetic straw, which is why I have so many random health problems. One of those problems includes extremely weak teeth (and a few "permanent" baby teeth that had no adult counterpart and were not meant to last 22+ years). Growing up, I had some VERY bad experiences with some dentists. They were not bad dentists, they were horrific human beings masquerading as dentists and orthodontists. No one ever believed me because "hey, all kids are afraid of the dentist", so once I was responsible for my own appointments I stopped going and did everything I could to manage on my own. Lasted ok up until a few years back, and I had to find a dentist for an emergency. I lucked out and found a great place with all female dentists who are very understanding of my background and they have been very respectful and great to work with. I managed to fit in 2-3 appointments a year when I was off at school, which helped solve most of my biggest issues, like the baby teeth and three molars with structural damage. The office has been great in trying to provide me the best options possible, like strong toothpaste and such, but they know I'm fighting a losing battle. One of them even told me that unless I downed flouride 24/7 it wouldn't necessarily improve, just keep it from getting worse. So I try to hold up my end, and they do well with theirs. This Thursday was just a cleaning, and reattaching the cap that fell out. The dentist said they may need to completely reshape the bit of tooth left and make a new crown, but she followed that up by saying it is the absolute least of her priorities because it is structurally stable. Just the cap not wanting to stay on is annoying and she said she wouldn't be surprised if it fell off again. So that's fun. She also said there are two teeth that at least need sedative fills. She thinks it may end up being root canals, but I will fight that with everything I have. They have not given me any issues at all and the damage to the two teeth has not changed in three years. If they've stayed like this for so long with no problems, I don't see why it should need a full root canal, and I will not be paying for that. Especially not since the last time they referred me to a root canal I nearly stabbed the periodontist in the throat with his own drill. The fucker injected the numbing agent and then IMMEDIATELY set to work, didn't even wait for it to kick in! I literally threw him off of me shouting (as best I could with the roof of my mouth inflated) and he had the balls to roll his eyes, sigh, and say he would be back. Oh, I tore him to pieces in a review and to my own dentist. I was supposed to see a different periodontist at the practice, but she had called in sick and they gave me that fucker instead. I liked the woman I was supposed to have, as I'd had her before. But that guy? Oh fuck no. He can die in a goddamned fucking fire. So I have no plans to go back. Sedative fillings I can live with. Bring them on. But risking seeing that guy again? He won't be walking away if I ever do. Crawling, maybe, if I'm in a good mood.
Anyway, long ramble-turned-rant. What else...
Today was Father's Day. I got my father a $50 gift card to Lowe's, to put toward the library he and my mother have been building. They are both veterans, and Lowe's gives military discounts, so the money goes a lot further there than Home Depot. I went back to the house for dinner. My middle brother and his wife were planning to come over, but she wasn't feeling well, so they stayed home. I got to see a raccoon wandering around the yard, but he got scared off by this nicely-sized turtle just hanging out. I guess the rock with a face scared the racoon. I had my mother's camera and got some pictures of the turtle, and of this blue jay sitting in a tree. The blue jay noticed me taking pictures, and I guess he didn't like it, because I have several of him glaring at me. Sorry, little dude.
Gaming:
I finally got around to starting Uncharted 4: A Thief's End. I had played a little bit of it shortly after it came out (my ex was a big Uncharted fan), and really enjoyed it, so when I saw it for justa few bucks months ago I couldn't pass it up. I have never played the other Uncharted games, so I wasn't entirely sure what the context was going into this story, but according to summaries and things I read online you don't need to know much about the previous games, just have the general gist. I finished up through Chapter 7 already, and am searching for collectibles as I go. Once I finish one playthrough I am going to look into trophies and work on those. I love story-driven solo games~ I get to immerse myself in the story and enjoy it, and I also get to take my time hunting for collectibles and achievements without having other players or friends heckling me. So far, I am madly in love with Nathan Drake (and more than a little emvious of the relationship he has with Elena), and the dialogue from not just him, but everyone, is moe realistic and amusing than many other games. Rather than stating the obvious plot and blatantly telling you what to do all the time, it includes realistic snippets of conversation and jokes that real people might actually have in those conversations. Plus, the scenery is so cool. Climbing around ruined prisons, explroing Scotland, scuba-diving in a river, it's all been really pretty!
I spent some quality time in Destiny 2 on Saturday. It's been a long while since I spent time on my Warlock, and I missed him, so I ran him through all of the newer Warmind content. I managed to get his level up to a decent place, and now he is almost caught up to my Hunter. He might surpass her once the new expansion drops, though. I always use him in PvP because I do really well with a Warlock in it, and there is a new PvP mode coming out in the new expansion that looks super awesome. It's also sort of a PvE mode, though, and I am a top-tier PvE player with my Hunter, so I may have to practice some PvP with her and see which I do better in the new mode with.
TV Shows:
I started watching Queer As Folk (the US version), and have been really enjoying it. I've been watching for about two weeks now, and am on season 3. This show has been quite the ride! Some of the situations hit very close to home as I have known people who have gone through nearly the exact same thing. The acting has consistently impressed me, which is a rare thing for me to say about a tv show. It does also make me miss the days when tv shows had more than 12 episodes a season. I mean come on, modern tv, I go through like four shows a week because of that. But I digress. I have been enjoying the show so far, and am excited to keep going.
I also started a new Netflix animated show called The Hollow. It's like... oh, how to explain... Three kids wake up in the room from Saw with no memories and just a typewriter. They solve the puzzle to get out, only to find themselves lost in the woods with some science experiment type creatures chasing after them. Then they get teleported to this land of minotaurs, and there are more puzzles for them to solve, and it's compliacted to try and explain. But I have enjoyed it so far. I watch one episode a night to try and make it last (I have finished the first three episodes), and it's interesting enough to hold my attention.
Books:
Yes, I am still reading The Orpheus Descent. I have been dragging my feet because I don't want to finish it and give it back to the library... This is why I buy books and don't borrow them! I get too attached! This is why I would have difficulty fostering animals :(
I also have been working my way through Brave New World, by Aldous Huxley. I have tried two read this twice before and never made it more than two chapters in. I am reading this with an online book club, though, which has definitely helped me pay more attention to it and find it more interesting, since now I have others to talk about it with. I am trying to withhold my opinions of the actual story until I finish it, because otherwise I won't want to pick it back up. It is definitely testing my personal morals, ethics, and beliefs in some strange ways.
My days have been uneventful. I don't know how I used to write mile-long posts every day all those years ago on my old account. Once a week now is like... I still don't feel like I ever have much to actually report.
I had a dentist appointment on Thursday. For the record, I drew the short genetic straw, which is why I have so many random health problems. One of those problems includes extremely weak teeth (and a few "permanent" baby teeth that had no adult counterpart and were not meant to last 22+ years). Growing up, I had some VERY bad experiences with some dentists. They were not bad dentists, they were horrific human beings masquerading as dentists and orthodontists. No one ever believed me because "hey, all kids are afraid of the dentist", so once I was responsible for my own appointments I stopped going and did everything I could to manage on my own. Lasted ok up until a few years back, and I had to find a dentist for an emergency. I lucked out and found a great place with all female dentists who are very understanding of my background and they have been very respectful and great to work with. I managed to fit in 2-3 appointments a year when I was off at school, which helped solve most of my biggest issues, like the baby teeth and three molars with structural damage. The office has been great in trying to provide me the best options possible, like strong toothpaste and such, but they know I'm fighting a losing battle. One of them even told me that unless I downed flouride 24/7 it wouldn't necessarily improve, just keep it from getting worse. So I try to hold up my end, and they do well with theirs. This Thursday was just a cleaning, and reattaching the cap that fell out. The dentist said they may need to completely reshape the bit of tooth left and make a new crown, but she followed that up by saying it is the absolute least of her priorities because it is structurally stable. Just the cap not wanting to stay on is annoying and she said she wouldn't be surprised if it fell off again. So that's fun. She also said there are two teeth that at least need sedative fills. She thinks it may end up being root canals, but I will fight that with everything I have. They have not given me any issues at all and the damage to the two teeth has not changed in three years. If they've stayed like this for so long with no problems, I don't see why it should need a full root canal, and I will not be paying for that. Especially not since the last time they referred me to a root canal I nearly stabbed the periodontist in the throat with his own drill. The fucker injected the numbing agent and then IMMEDIATELY set to work, didn't even wait for it to kick in! I literally threw him off of me shouting (as best I could with the roof of my mouth inflated) and he had the balls to roll his eyes, sigh, and say he would be back. Oh, I tore him to pieces in a review and to my own dentist. I was supposed to see a different periodontist at the practice, but she had called in sick and they gave me that fucker instead. I liked the woman I was supposed to have, as I'd had her before. But that guy? Oh fuck no. He can die in a goddamned fucking fire. So I have no plans to go back. Sedative fillings I can live with. Bring them on. But risking seeing that guy again? He won't be walking away if I ever do. Crawling, maybe, if I'm in a good mood.
Anyway, long ramble-turned-rant. What else...
Today was Father's Day. I got my father a $50 gift card to Lowe's, to put toward the library he and my mother have been building. They are both veterans, and Lowe's gives military discounts, so the money goes a lot further there than Home Depot. I went back to the house for dinner. My middle brother and his wife were planning to come over, but she wasn't feeling well, so they stayed home. I got to see a raccoon wandering around the yard, but he got scared off by this nicely-sized turtle just hanging out. I guess the rock with a face scared the racoon. I had my mother's camera and got some pictures of the turtle, and of this blue jay sitting in a tree. The blue jay noticed me taking pictures, and I guess he didn't like it, because I have several of him glaring at me. Sorry, little dude.
Gaming:
I finally got around to starting Uncharted 4: A Thief's End. I had played a little bit of it shortly after it came out (my ex was a big Uncharted fan), and really enjoyed it, so when I saw it for justa few bucks months ago I couldn't pass it up. I have never played the other Uncharted games, so I wasn't entirely sure what the context was going into this story, but according to summaries and things I read online you don't need to know much about the previous games, just have the general gist. I finished up through Chapter 7 already, and am searching for collectibles as I go. Once I finish one playthrough I am going to look into trophies and work on those. I love story-driven solo games~ I get to immerse myself in the story and enjoy it, and I also get to take my time hunting for collectibles and achievements without having other players or friends heckling me. So far, I am madly in love with Nathan Drake (and more than a little emvious of the relationship he has with Elena), and the dialogue from not just him, but everyone, is moe realistic and amusing than many other games. Rather than stating the obvious plot and blatantly telling you what to do all the time, it includes realistic snippets of conversation and jokes that real people might actually have in those conversations. Plus, the scenery is so cool. Climbing around ruined prisons, explroing Scotland, scuba-diving in a river, it's all been really pretty!
I spent some quality time in Destiny 2 on Saturday. It's been a long while since I spent time on my Warlock, and I missed him, so I ran him through all of the newer Warmind content. I managed to get his level up to a decent place, and now he is almost caught up to my Hunter. He might surpass her once the new expansion drops, though. I always use him in PvP because I do really well with a Warlock in it, and there is a new PvP mode coming out in the new expansion that looks super awesome. It's also sort of a PvE mode, though, and I am a top-tier PvE player with my Hunter, so I may have to practice some PvP with her and see which I do better in the new mode with.
TV Shows:
I started watching Queer As Folk (the US version), and have been really enjoying it. I've been watching for about two weeks now, and am on season 3. This show has been quite the ride! Some of the situations hit very close to home as I have known people who have gone through nearly the exact same thing. The acting has consistently impressed me, which is a rare thing for me to say about a tv show. It does also make me miss the days when tv shows had more than 12 episodes a season. I mean come on, modern tv, I go through like four shows a week because of that. But I digress. I have been enjoying the show so far, and am excited to keep going.
I also started a new Netflix animated show called The Hollow. It's like... oh, how to explain... Three kids wake up in the room from Saw with no memories and just a typewriter. They solve the puzzle to get out, only to find themselves lost in the woods with some science experiment type creatures chasing after them. Then they get teleported to this land of minotaurs, and there are more puzzles for them to solve, and it's compliacted to try and explain. But I have enjoyed it so far. I watch one episode a night to try and make it last (I have finished the first three episodes), and it's interesting enough to hold my attention.
Books:
Yes, I am still reading The Orpheus Descent. I have been dragging my feet because I don't want to finish it and give it back to the library... This is why I buy books and don't borrow them! I get too attached! This is why I would have difficulty fostering animals :(
I also have been working my way through Brave New World, by Aldous Huxley. I have tried two read this twice before and never made it more than two chapters in. I am reading this with an online book club, though, which has definitely helped me pay more attention to it and find it more interesting, since now I have others to talk about it with. I am trying to withhold my opinions of the actual story until I finish it, because otherwise I won't want to pick it back up. It is definitely testing my personal morals, ethics, and beliefs in some strange ways.