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So because one one stupid joke I sent to my mother from work, I have been put back on the phones.
Never mind the fact that I've been doing my current job for more than a year - I was still considered to be 'on secondment.' I FUCKING HATE THIS SHIT. This is the SECOND time they have done this to me. They say there's nothing wrong with your work, your work is fine, but REFUSE to give me any permanency.
Other people get it after their 3 months. But for some fucking stupid reason that I don't understand I NEVER EVEN GET THE OFFER. Oh they say I will and I ask and work my arse off... but NADA.
And so they shuttle me off to a job that I am BAD at and that I HATE. The kicker is this, I could get a statement from my numerous doctors saying that putting me on the phones is dangerous to my mental health and preventing them from doing so. But I don't because I would feel like I was taking advantage. eing on the phones was the reason I started taking codeine. It was the reason I started drinking. Because I need something - anything - to shut me off from the reality of it.
And now I'm expected to make sales - which I refuse to do unless it's best for the customer. To do other wise would make me feel sleazy. I've also had NO training on it or the new system. Oh I know how to fix it and arrange your reporting in it, but USING it? And it's not exactly an easy thing to learn.
I need a new job. Fuck, I need a new life.
Never mind the fact that I've been doing my current job for more than a year - I was still considered to be 'on secondment.' I FUCKING HATE THIS SHIT. This is the SECOND time they have done this to me. They say there's nothing wrong with your work, your work is fine, but REFUSE to give me any permanency.
Other people get it after their 3 months. But for some fucking stupid reason that I don't understand I NEVER EVEN GET THE OFFER. Oh they say I will and I ask and work my arse off... but NADA.
And so they shuttle me off to a job that I am BAD at and that I HATE. The kicker is this, I could get a statement from my numerous doctors saying that putting me on the phones is dangerous to my mental health and preventing them from doing so. But I don't because I would feel like I was taking advantage. eing on the phones was the reason I started taking codeine. It was the reason I started drinking. Because I need something - anything - to shut me off from the reality of it.
And now I'm expected to make sales - which I refuse to do unless it's best for the customer. To do other wise would make me feel sleazy. I've also had NO training on it or the new system. Oh I know how to fix it and arrange your reporting in it, but USING it? And it's not exactly an easy thing to learn.
I need a new job. Fuck, I need a new life.