Making Plans
so i have given up the job hunt, it's way too late, nobody needs anybody and i am sick of interviewing with no response.
that said: i should be making more plans to hang out with people. i don't know why but this is extremely hard, like i just don't want to pick up the phone and call people who i LOVE. that is pretty fucked up.
also: the people i do make plans with quickly break them or don't follow through, or want to make plans at the last minute very late at night, which doesn't work for me since i get up at like 7:45 to go work out and then go to the lovely NATS class that i am owning like nobody's business and fucking up "the curve" by getting 107.5% on the last test. mind you, the graduate student teaching the class proceeds to TELL the whole class that the smarty pants who got 107.5% fucked up the curve for everybody else. then (get this) asked the class not to go out in the hall and beat "this person" up after class.
thanks asshole. it's not my fault i am privileged with a liberal arts education and got a great score on your lame, easy ass test. did you ever think of taking my score out of the equation so that the curve would work? no? maybe that's cuz you're a socially inept idiot who doesn't think of anything unless it's in terms of an equation. god forbid you had to apply your precious math to a real life situation. jesus. you're going for your PhD....get a clue.
so basically: making plans to hang out is not a goof way for me to work, it makes me think i am not going to do so well in the real world where i see friends only when we make plans. and, my teacher is an idiot.
ugg, bisbee tomorrow for father's day. and i am the only person under 40 going on this excursion. this weekend is going to need some intense positive thinking.
that said: i should be making more plans to hang out with people. i don't know why but this is extremely hard, like i just don't want to pick up the phone and call people who i LOVE. that is pretty fucked up.
also: the people i do make plans with quickly break them or don't follow through, or want to make plans at the last minute very late at night, which doesn't work for me since i get up at like 7:45 to go work out and then go to the lovely NATS class that i am owning like nobody's business and fucking up "the curve" by getting 107.5% on the last test. mind you, the graduate student teaching the class proceeds to TELL the whole class that the smarty pants who got 107.5% fucked up the curve for everybody else. then (get this) asked the class not to go out in the hall and beat "this person" up after class.
thanks asshole. it's not my fault i am privileged with a liberal arts education and got a great score on your lame, easy ass test. did you ever think of taking my score out of the equation so that the curve would work? no? maybe that's cuz you're a socially inept idiot who doesn't think of anything unless it's in terms of an equation. god forbid you had to apply your precious math to a real life situation. jesus. you're going for your PhD....get a clue.
so basically: making plans to hang out is not a goof way for me to work, it makes me think i am not going to do so well in the real world where i see friends only when we make plans. and, my teacher is an idiot.
ugg, bisbee tomorrow for father's day. and i am the only person under 40 going on this excursion. this weekend is going to need some intense positive thinking.