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For whatever reason I have been exhausted all week. Even if I spent all my time after work relaxing and taking it easy I would still feel drained when I wake up. I have come to the conclusion that I will not feel totally rejuvenated until I graduate. It’s true. I'm sure of it.
I've also realized how stressful it is to pre-move. The whole process of finding the right place, touring the place, setting expectations for a place and reviewing the finances for a place, etc. is totally overwhelming. I'll be happy when we find the right place, sign a lease and settle in. I feel like my life will be totally different at that point, in a good way. Like the bickering that Matt and I do now, I think the majority of that will be solved. The distance and time limitations put a strain on us in a way. You get to a point where you’re like, "I'm 22, I have been dating my boyfriend for almost 4 years...I want to spend the night with him when I want. I want to go to sleep and have him there. I want to wake up and see him. I want to surprise by making dinner or..." I don't know. As great as things are now, I think our relationship would benefit from this opportunity. No parents telling us when we can be over, when they can't, who can spend the night, who can't, be home at this time...blah, blah, blah.
Gosh, imagine the holidays without a parent saying, "No, you can't go to their dinner, you have to be here..." and ALWAYS getting away with it. What a release that will be.
In about 2 months I'll be registering for my last semester at OU. Last semester. Can you hear the graduating music....
I'm up in arms about that. Some days it makes me excited, others a little scared. More then anything I'm happy about it. I'm ready to get on with life. I will however, probably end up getting my Masters. Not right away, but eventually. During my last semester I need to take electives, fluff credits if you will, and I planned on taking 3 English writing classes (Business Writing, Fundamentals of Grammar and Interpretive Writing). In doing so I can add on a English minor to my degree and thus eventually get a Masters in English.
And I know some people are going to be like, "Well what are you going to do with that? Teach?" I don’t have any time for those people. There is so much more you can do with an English degree then people realize: business careers, technical careers, etc. Anywho, I'll have a B.A. in Journalism and a M.A. in English...eventually.
Man, sometimes I think about how there are people who are so far away from this…people who shouldn’t be, who aren’t even trying…and it makes me so thankful that I had a strong enough will power and sturdy head on my shoulders to get to this point. And that I have Matt, who is also close to getting his degree, has a lot of respectable goals set for himself, and a strong enough drive to achieve them. I just don't understand how some people can throw in the towel and just give up on their future before they even give it a chance...
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I'm avoiding my phone at work. Every time it rings I cringe a little. People ask the stupidest, lamest questions ever. I swear. It's 2007! If you have a computer, learn how to use it. Your in college...therefore you must have some kind of brain. And that only goes to those who deserve it. Some people just get lost in the system or have not grown up with computers like my generation, and those people are excluded from the group. But if you have to ask me what a mouse or your desktop is, or if I say numbers and you keep entering letters, or you start complaining about how you have to remember two passwords for our system...I have no sympathy.