Truer Days
I'll be in a much better mood once I'm all caught up with my college work/homework/studio work. I don't know why I let myself get behind like that. It must be the procrastinator in me.
Well, I'm fighting it, now. I've set myself a goal and, so far, it looks like I'm sticking to it. I should be all caught up before my birthday if I keep at it. That way, I won't have any worries on that day... which I usually have in the past. I don't know why my past birthdays have been so stressful. Usually, on that day, I'm the most moody than most days and I'm not usually happy... but I believe things have changed since then. If there's a party soon, I'll be more than happy to vent and have a good time... I know I won't have anything going on on my birthday, but that's ok. I'm sure my friends will have a bitchin' party later on!
Hm, since I kissed that girl that one special night, I've been in a better mood and more able to do things. Maybe I'm wrong about all this. Maybe being affectionate with gals isn't distracting me after all, but, rather, putting me in a better, more confident mood to accomplish things better or just plain accomplish things, lol. Hell, I've even been dabbling ALOT in my art classes and sketchbook/ideas in the past 3 days... and that hasn't happened in FOREVER. I mean, I really have to be "in the mood" or inspired to be motivated to do artwork. And so, I very much have been and I find myself spending hours on something in the studio... that wouldn't happen with me usually. Hm, maybe a gal to be with or hang out with might be a good idea... *evil grin*
After all, I still gotta make that artfully delicious birthday present for a friend of mine. What motivated me to come up with that idea, I don't know. All I know is it must be done.... yup. :-)
Well, I'm fighting it, now. I've set myself a goal and, so far, it looks like I'm sticking to it. I should be all caught up before my birthday if I keep at it. That way, I won't have any worries on that day... which I usually have in the past. I don't know why my past birthdays have been so stressful. Usually, on that day, I'm the most moody than most days and I'm not usually happy... but I believe things have changed since then. If there's a party soon, I'll be more than happy to vent and have a good time... I know I won't have anything going on on my birthday, but that's ok. I'm sure my friends will have a bitchin' party later on!
Hm, since I kissed that girl that one special night, I've been in a better mood and more able to do things. Maybe I'm wrong about all this. Maybe being affectionate with gals isn't distracting me after all, but, rather, putting me in a better, more confident mood to accomplish things better or just plain accomplish things, lol. Hell, I've even been dabbling ALOT in my art classes and sketchbook/ideas in the past 3 days... and that hasn't happened in FOREVER. I mean, I really have to be "in the mood" or inspired to be motivated to do artwork. And so, I very much have been and I find myself spending hours on something in the studio... that wouldn't happen with me usually. Hm, maybe a gal to be with or hang out with might be a good idea... *evil grin*
After all, I still gotta make that artfully delicious birthday present for a friend of mine. What motivated me to come up with that idea, I don't know. All I know is it must be done.... yup. :-)