cause your actions have consequences and these are them

Jun 15, 2006 16:57

This is going to be brightly colored. Just so you know. So beware.

This is also unprotected. So comment if you want. I no longer fucking care.

Fuck you Rodney. Fuck you and all your damn lies. Fuck every person who does this to other people. If you want to hate me for that then okay. Its never okay. To think that you made me believe that it was her fault. I feel sorry for her. I'm sure you told her exactly what you were telling me. Dating someone else for four months you sick fuck. I'm glad I slapped you. I told you this yesterday and I'll say it again. I want to hit you with my car. But all of the physical violence I could inflict on you would never amount to how shitty I feel right now. You ruined the best relationship you've ever been in. I hope you're happy. No one will ever love you or treat you as well as I treated you. You know that. Trying to leave me for someone who already cheated on you. I think thats hilarious. How fucking ridiculous. I'm sure its easy to manipulate girls barely out of high school. And everyone thought you were such a good person. Goddamnit. AHOSDIUF:SLDFJ:SDHF Just fuck you fuck you fuck you. I hope you die.

Now. That shouldn't be too shocking because I've already told you all of that like a million times. God, I wish I did hate you. I wish I did want to hit you with my car. Wow, I am so fucked up. I hate that you make me not hate you. I hate that I still love you and that I always will. And maybe I'm weak. For wanting to believe the things you've told me in the past 3 days. For believing some of it. For feeling closer to you now than I have since January. Don't tell me you wanted to send me flowers. Don't make me think you love me if you don't. There is no excuse for this. Nothing will make it better. But I want to I want to I want to. And I'd love to forgive you. I'd love to fast forward 7 years from now and see where we are.

I wish I felt better off. I wish that I believed that. That somewhere there are some fucking males in the goddamn world that don't suck hardcore. Who aren't total shit. I'm really starting to think that these people don't exist. God, I fucking hate dating. I hate it so much. All these dumbasses trying to pretend that they aren't the scum of the earth. I hate every single one of you. You all suck and you're all the same. Even the ones who treat you well fucking suck. They end up sucking. I hate people.
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