i fuckin'g everything i do.
i just hate how everything is going. i shouldn't be doing the things i am doing now. its ridiculous. the only thing thats oh so great are just my friends. i love them. but i also miss of some a of the few friends i had........pathetic as it sounds. i feel like its all my fault.... for losing them. i don't know. then again i need to stop blaming everything on me. i miss being a baby again. i want to be a baby again! lol. ha. tomorrow is friday, i don't know whats going down yet. saturday is inferis @ steel. should be very interesting. i'm still not done xmas shopping yet. i don't know what to get the ladies! nor my boys. i got a few people gift cards to best buy. ha. but i want to give something that would be meaningful you know?! gr. fuck it. i'll just get cards and some uh...SOCKS. =) yeahhhh